Dilemmas of Pride, (Vol 1 of 3)Loudon, Mrs. (Margracia)
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Dilemmas of Pride, (Vol 1 of 3)
Loudon, Mrs. (Margracia)
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He was a lad of eighteen or nineteen before the marriage of his uncle,
the late Sir Alfred; and from a child had been in the habit of hearing
his father and mother, and such of their particular friends as sought to
flatter their secret wishes, speculate on the possibility of his uncle's
never marrying, and his being consequently heir to the Arden estates,
which were strictly entailed in the male line. Nay, his very nursemaid's
usual threat was, that if he cried when his face was being washed, he
should never be Sir Geoffery. At school, all the boys at play hours had
somehow or other acquired the habit of calling him Sir Geoffery; and at
college his companions, particularly those who wished to flatter him
into idle extravagance, constantly joked and complimented him about his
great _expectations_. Thus had those expectations, unjustly founded as
they were, grown with his growth and strengthened with his strength;
till, when his uncle did marry, he could scarcely help thinking himself
an injured, robbed, and very ill-treated person. Hope however revived a
little, on the first three children chancing to be daughters, and his
mother began again to say, he might have the Arden estates
yet:--stranger things had happened. "And you might marry one of the
girls, you know, Geoffery," she would continue,--"it would be some
compensation to poor Sir Alfred for having no son."
"Indeed I should do no such thing," he would reply. "I should just
please myself. It's not to oblige me, I suppose, that my uncle has no
son."
The birth of the twin brothers, immediately after this, put an end to
all further speculations on the subject; except, indeed, that Mrs. Arden
could not help observing that, "after all, the lives of two weakly
infants, as twins of course must be, with the measles, hooping-cough,
and all other infantile diseases before them, were not worth much."
Geoffery became sulky under his disappointment, and said very little;
but silently he hated the twins for having been born. Of what use were
they, he thought; for what purpose had they been brought into the world,
except indeed to ruin his prospects.
Had they never been born, they would not have wanted the property, and
he might have enjoyed it. Now he must go and drudge at a profession,
the very idea of which, after his imagination had been so long dazzled
by false hopes, he absolutely loathed.
He had been educated for the Bar, but had neglected his studies. He had
been dissipated without gaiety of heart, and a gambler from avarice. His
hopes had made him proud, while his fears had made him gloomy. In short,
he had contrived to extract the evil from every thing, while he had
avoided all that was good. As to his legal studies, he had never read
any portion with interest or attention but the law of male entail.
He was a bachelor, and likely to remain such: for he could not afford to
marry, unless he obtained a much larger fortune than he was entitled to
expect.
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