Dilemmas of Pride, (Vol 2 of 3)Loudon, Mrs. (Margracia)
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Dilemmas of Pride, (Vol 2 of 3)
Loudon, Mrs. (Margracia)
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After this, when Lady Arden had retired to her own room, accompanied by
Madeline, who was her sleeping companion, she renewed the conversation
in a serious and tender strain, representing strongly to her daughter
the great danger of appearing for a season or two unappropriated, with
the ultimate and utter wretchedness of the single state, than which she
did not know if even an unhappy marriage were not preferable. "Mrs.
Dorothea says, you know," she added, trying to treat the subject
jestingly, though herself ill at ease, "that a bad husband, from which
heaven preserve you, my child!" she fervently ejaculated, "is quite a
_natural_ misfortune, and therefore easy to endure, in comparison with
the unnatural misery of having no tie to life; no affections, no
feelings, no hopes, no fears, no joys, no sorrows; yet to be surrounded
with the most undignified annoyances, and to feel that for want of more
important objects of interest, one's mind is degraded into being their
very slave, with just enough left of its former self to make it sensible
of its debasement. The cares of the wife and mother, however numerous,
however anxious, are comparatively ennobling! For though it is our
second self, and our children, who may be said to be parts of ourselves,
that are their objects, still they are not felt for self alone; they do
not spring from that most unredeemed of instincts, individual
selfishness. Then, in the case of Mr. Cameron," proceeded her ladyship,
"he is, your aunt says, so peculiarly amiable, and bears in every
particular so high a character, that there is every reason to hope that
where he fixed his affections he would make a kind and good husband."
And here again Lady Arden enlarged on the splendour of the match, yet
with tears in her eyes, and even more than her usual indulgent
tenderness of manner; for while she could not bear to resign prospects
so dazzling, she looked anxiously at her blooming child, and feared the
sacrifice might be too great.
Madeline, very much affected by her mother's fond and winning
gentleness, said, and thought at the time, she was sure that she should
be quite happy in doing anything that would give her pleasure, promising
to be always and in every thing guided by her advice.
"Still, my love, 'tis you yourself who must ultimately decide; only
don't be rash in casting away, should it ever be in your offer, what has
so many advantages."
This doubt as to the fact of her having made the so much talked of
conquest at all, sounded somewhat disagreeable in Madeline's ear; and
perhaps went further in creating a desire to secure the said brilliant
establishment than all which had been said in its favour. She began
already to think herself threatened with the fate of Aunt Dorothea; and
contrasting that in imagination with what she was told her lot would be
as the wife of Mr. Cameron, she came to the conclusion, that whenever he
made her an offer of his hand she supposed she must accept it!
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