Dilemmas of Pride, (Vol 2 of 3)Loudon, Mrs. (Margracia)
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Dilemmas of Pride, (Vol 2 of 3)
Loudon, Mrs. (Margracia)
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He next heard his knock, and a few
moments after could distinguish, though not the precise words,
Willoughby's voice inquiring, of course, if Lady Palliser were at home.
Lastly he heard the entering step and closing door.
Now it was Alfred's turn to pace up and down the apartment. He did so
with hurried and unequal steps for about ten minutes, then flung himself
on a sofa, and lay perfectly motionless, his eyes vacant of expression,
for their sight was turned inward, where fancy was busily pourtraying
the scene probably passing at the moment in Lady Palliser's
drawing-room--that very room in which he had lately spent so many
blissful hours; in which he had so often yielded to the fatally
fascinating conviction that he was beloved by a heart too innocent to
hide its feelings; that very room in which he had finally been accepted
with seeming confidence, with seeming tenderness; and yet in which but a
few hours after, he had been as capriciously, as unfeelingly rejected;
nay, rejected with the most unequivocal symptoms of personal aversion,
and that without any possible cause being assigned, except the lady's
having, in the mean time, met with and determined to captivate his elder
brother, who was a much richer, and as head of the family, a greater
man. And she had accomplished her end. Willoughby was probably at this
very moment declaring his love! How did Caroline listen? He pictured her
such as she had looked while he had himself spoken; and the most
pitiable agitation overwhelmed him. After the lapse of half an hour he
again heard footsteps on the gravel. He started up--he stood at the
window; he saw Willoughby approaching, his countenance beaming with
satisfaction. How strange were his own sensations; the exquisite pang
instantly checked by the bitterest self-reproach. Was it
possible?--Could he when he beheld the face of his kind, affectionate,
dear brother, expressive of happiness, grieve at the sight?--Oh, for
shame! it was not so--it should not be so--as to his own disappointment,
that had been an ascertained thing long before;--why recur to it now! By
this time Willoughby had entered and grasped his hand. Alfred mastered
his emotion, and cordially returning the pressure of the hand, said with
a forced smile, "I see you have been accepted?"
"I have--it is not however to take place for several months; so Lady
Palliser has invited me in the mean while to stay some time with them in
----shire; and after I have been to Arden, and made all my arrangements
there, I am to join them in Paris, whence we are to proceed through some
parts of Italy and Germany; all previous to--to--the ratification of our
engagement. They will leave Cheltenham, I believe, to-morrow or next
day; but I am to spend this evening with them _en famille_, when I shall
know all their plans."
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