British -- Germany -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction; Husband and wife -- Fiction
Very gently, but firmly, he loosened her clasp. He heard the major move
impatiently; he knew nothing of the bridge which she had lowered for him
to cross and take her in his old possession. And even if he had known
he could not have acted otherwise.
"I must go, dear," he said. "I am on important duty."
"More important than I am?"
"Yes, even more important than you are!"
She drew back of her own accord and let him go. The moment’s
self-surrender was gone, and because it had been in vain the gulf
between them had widened.
Miles laughed as he saw her face.
"It must be amusing to be married to a German," he said. "I suppose you
are never an important duty, are you?"
Nora went out of the room without answering. She almost hated Miles for
his biting, if disguised criticism; she hated herself because it awoke
in her an echo, a bitter resentment against her husband. She was the
secondary consideration: he proved it every day of his life. His
so-called duty was no more in her eyes than an insatiable ambition which
thrust every other consideration on one side. He had never yet given up
a day’s work to her pleasure; he sat hour after hour locked in his room,
and toiled for his advancement, indifferent to her loneliness, to the
bitter struggle which was being fought out in the secrecy of her heart;
and when she came to him, as in that vital moment, with outstretched
hands, pleading for his help and pity, he had thrust her aside because,
forsooth, he had "important duty"! He was like those other men she had
met who dressed their wives like beggars rather than go with a shabby
uniform or deny themselves a good horse. He was selfish,
self-important, and she was no more in his life than a toy—or at most an
unpaid housekeeper, as her father had prophesied. How right they had
been, those home-people! How true their warnings had proved themselves!
Her love had intoxicated her, blinded her to the insurmountable
barriers. She saw now, more clearly than ever before, in her dawning
recognition, that she stood alone, without a friend, in the innermost
depths of her nature a stranger even to her husband. And he had not
helped her. He had left her to her solitude, he had cut her off from
the one companion who might have made her life bearable. He was as
narrow, as bigoted as the rest of those who judged her by the poor
standard of their foreign prejudices and customs. The thought of that
last interview with Frau von Arnim was fuel to the kindling fire in
Nora’s brain. She had been treated like a criminal—or, worse, like a
silly child who has been caught stealing. She had been ordered to
obedience like a will-less inferior who has been admitted into the
circle of higher beings and must submit to the extreme rigour of their
laws. Whereas, it was she who had condescended, who had sacrificed her
more glorious birthright to associate with them! All that was obstinate
and proud in Nora’s nature rose and overwhelmed the dread of the
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