British -- Germany -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction; Husband and wife -- Fiction
She looked at him and she understood. He, too, was _Soldat_, he too
could carry his gun and take his place with the best, he too had been
taught to bear his share worthily in the highest of all human
callings—one saw the pride of it in his face. And he was not alone. He
was typical of all, of a whole nation in arms.
A sort of panic seized her. She turned and fled, thrusting her way
through the thinning crowd with the strength of despair. Only one
thought possessed her—to get away, to escape from a force which she had
learnt to fear. Panting, disordered, scarcely knowing what she did or
meant to do, she reached her home at last. Silence greeted her—silence
and an absolute darkness. She entered the drawing-room and turned on
the light. No one. Her husband’s door, locked when she had gone out,
stood wide open.
"Wolff!" she called. Her voice shook. She called again, and then her
brother’s name, but the silence remained unbroken. She looked about
her, and her eyes chanced to rest an instant on her table; she saw that
a letter was lying on the blotting-case, which had not been there
before. She ran and picked it up. It was addressed to her in Miles’s
handwriting.
"Johann has just run in to look for Wolff," he scrawled. "He says war
is declared, and I’m off. There is a train leaving at eight, and I have
no time to lose. Sorry I can’t say good-bye, old girl. I wish you
could come, but I suppose you can’t. We’ll come and fetch you though,
never fear!"
A cry broke from Nora’s trembling lips. He had gone—he had left her.
He had the right to go! And she was alone. She looked at the clock
ticking peacefully on the mantelpiece. She had no clear plan, but she
saw that it was half-past seven, and she reckoned that the Potsdamer
Bahnhof could not be more than twenty minutes away. If she could get a
cab there would be time. For what? She did not know. She was still
panic-stricken. The silence oppressed her with a greater horror than
the roaring of the crowd. The little room, with its cheap, ugly
ornaments, had become absolutely unfamiliar to her. She felt that it was
impossible she could ever have lived here, she felt that she had
wandered into a stranger’s house, and that he might come back any minute
and find her. She ran to the door. No bond, no link of memory or past
happiness held her back. Not even the grey _Litewka_ hanging in the
hall, with its silent reminder, could change the headlong course of her
resolution. She saw it, she even stopped to look at it. It spoke to
her of a man she had known long ago, who had gone out of her life and
was no more than the memory of a dream. Because it had been a beautiful
dream she bent and kissed the empty sleeve, but she did not hesitate,
and her eyes were tearless. Stronger than that memory was the craving
for home and the fear of the stranger who would return and find her.
Thus she fled, and the door of the little flat closed with a melancholy
clang.
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