British -- Germany -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction; Husband and wife -- Fiction
He went on explosively tirading, but Nora no longer listened. She was
thinking of her mother’s words and wondering if these then were the
narrow-hearted fools and braggarts against whom she was to struggle.
And in that moment the struggle began in her own heart. She went to the
window and tried to shut her ears against all that was going on about
her. She tried to understand herself and the strange, conflicting
emotions which had come to life in the last few minutes. Everything that
the squire and her brother had said goaded her to a hot retort. She
felt herself quivering with indignation—because they were abusing a
people she hated, the man whom she had deserted because she no longer
loved him! She _wanted_ to ratify every word they said; she told
herself that she had the right to do so, that it was all true; and yet
her whole spirit rose in arms against their attack. What was worse, she
felt a vague antipathy for these three men. She thought the squire
coarse and arrogant; his entry and his greeting to her had been rough
and without the respect to which she was accustomed. And why could
Miles do nothing without his hands in his pockets? Why, when he sat
down, had he to be either nursing his leg or "slouching"? Why was her
father so weak and fussy-looking? And then, to her horror, Wolff stood
before her eyes. Was it a feeling of pride which crept over her, pride
in his upright bearing and dignity? _He_ had never been rough or rude
to her. His courtesy to her and all women had been unvarying. She turned
quickly away, trying to stop her own thoughts. The squire was standing
in his favourite attitude, with his legs wide apart, still tirading
impartially against the German people and the English Government, who
refused to wipe them off the face of the earth. Miles had collapsed
into the most comfortable arm-chair, his head thrown back, his hands
plunged deep in his pockets. The Rev. John stood between them, a
picture of helpless dejection. It seemed to Nora that they had each
taken up the attitude in which she hated them most. Hated! It was the
word her thoughts had uttered. It could not be recalled. If she hated
them—why, then, she had lost everything: her husband, her people, her
own nationality! Why, then, she was nothing, she belonged to no one, no
link of love bound her to any living being. Only her mother was left—her
mother and that one other being the knowledge of whose existence had
come too late to save her.
In the same moment that her full misery broke upon Nora some one tapped
at the door and, without awaiting an answer, a pale, terrified-looking
servant rushed in.
"If you please, sir," she stammered, "will you come at once? The
mistress is—asleep—and we cannot wake her——"
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