British -- Germany -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction; Husband and wife -- Fiction
The Rev. John uttered a smothered cry, and without a word to his guest
hurried from the room. Miles followed him. But Nora remained quietly
by the window and took no notice of the squire as, with an awkwardly
expressed hope that "it would be all right," he left her to herself.
She knew what had happened. Her mother had bidden her good night, and
night had come. She was alone—in the whole world alone and friendless.
*CHAPTER II*
*EXILED*
There is only one sorrow in life which is really great, and that is the
loss of those we love. The other sorrows seem great so long as we have
been spared the hardest blow which life can deal us, and then we
understand that, after all, they were very petty and that if we had
chosen we could have borne them patiently, even cheerfully. Loss of
health, loss of wealth, loss of position—they are all bad in their way,
and as a rule we make the worst we can of them; but not till we have to
bear them _alone_, without the support of some familiar, loving hand,
have we the right to cry out that we can endure no more.
And for the first time in her life Nora knew loneliness—not the
loneliness which she had felt in her husband’s home and amongst her
husband’s people, for that had been temporary, a state which could, if
necessary, be overcome by a return to those whom she had left of her own
free-will and whose love and sympathy she could still claim. _This_
loneliness was final, unbridgeable. Death had raised up a wall between
her and all return. The one being whose hand could have comforted her,
in whose arms she could have found peace and rest, had passed beyond
recall, and it was in vain that, in a childish agony of grief, she flung
herself down by her mother’s sofa and pleaded with the dead not to leave
her comfortless. There was no answer. The patient, noble woman who had
lain there day after day without complaint, watching the slow, painful
fulfilment of her destiny, had gone and would come no more. She had
gained her freedom. Even in her own stormy sorrow Nora realised so
much—that her mother was free and that her life had been a long, bitter
imprisonment, to which it would have been cruel to recall her. She had
gone willingly, passing out of a sphere in which she had always been an
exile, and taking with her the last—perhaps the only link which had ever
bound Nora to her home. In those hours when Nora had hated the stuffy
little flat and had longed for the scent of the home flowers, it had
always been of her mother’s garden which she had thought; when she had
seen the picture of the Vicarage rise before her eyes it had always been
her mother’s room which had stood out clearest, which had tempted her by
the tenderest recollections. And now that her mother had gone, that
home had ceased to be her home. The flowers were dead in the garden,
the rooms empty of the old haunting charm, the glamour which her exile’s
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