British -- Germany -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction; Husband and wife -- Fiction
Arnim did not answer, nor did he show any sign of continuing on his way.
He seemed suddenly caught in a painful train of thought, from which his
companion made no effort to arouse him.
"Poor little soul!" he said at last, half to himself. "It is terribly
hard luck on her. No one loved life as she did, and now"—his brows
contracted—"sometimes I feel as though I were to blame," he added
abruptly.
"What nonsense!" Seleneck retorted. "Are you responsible because a
horse shies and a girl has the misfortune to be thrown?"
"Perhaps not; but the feeling of responsibility is not so easily shaken
off. I never see her—or her mother—without cursing the impulse that
made me take her out that day."
"It might just as well have happened any other day and with any one
else," Seleneck retorted cold-bloodedly.
"Of course. Only one cannot reason like that with one’s conscience. At
any rate, there is nothing I would not do to make her happy—to atone to
her. Besides," he added hastily, as though he had said something he
regretted, "I am very fond of her."
The elder man tapped him on the shoulder.
"_Alter Junge_," he said pointedly, "I can trust your career to your
brains, but I am not so sure that I can trust your life to your heart.
Take care that you do not end up as Field-Marshal with Disappointment as
your adjutant. _Lebewohl_."
With an abrupt salute he turned and strode off into the gathering
twilight, leaving Arnim to put what interpretation he chose to the
warning. That the warning had not been without effect was clear. Arnim
went up the steps of the square-built house with a slowness that
suggested reluctance, and the features beneath the dark-blue cap,
hitherto alight with energy and enthusiasm, had suddenly become graver
and older.
He found Frau von Arnim in her private sitting-room, writing letters.
She turned with a pleased smile as he entered, and held out a hand which
he kissed affectionately. The bond between them was indeed an unusually
close one, and dated from Wolff’s first boyhood, when as a pathetically
small cadet he had wept long-controlled and bitter tears on her kind
shoulder and confided to her all the wrongs with which his elder
comrades darkened his life. From that time he had been a constant
Sunday guest at her table, had been Hildegarde’s playfellow throughout
the long Sunday afternoons, and had returned to the grim Cadettenhaus at
nightfall laden with contraband of the sort dearest to a boy’s heart.
Afterwards, as ensign and young lieutenant, he had still looked up to
her with the old confidence, and to this very hour there had been no
passage in his life, wise or foolish, of which she was not cognisant.
She had been mother, father, and comrade to him, and it was more by
instinct than from any sense of duty that he had come to her first with
his good news.
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