Doctor Grimshawe's Secret — a RomanceHawthorne, Nathaniel
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Doctor Grimshawe's Secret — a Romance
Hawthorne, Nathaniel
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“And he being dead, and finding you here now, by such a strange
coincidence,” said Redclyffe, “and being myself a man capable of taking
your counsel, I would have you impart it to me: for I assure you that
the current of my life runs darkly on, and I would be glad of any light
on its future, or even its present phase.”
“I am not one of those from whom the world waits for counsel,” said the
pensioner, “and I know not that mine would be advantageous to you, in
the light which men usually prize. Yet if I were to give any, it would
be that you should be gone hence.”
“Gone hence!” repeated Redclyffe, surprised. “I tell you--what I have
hardly hitherto told to myself--that all my dreams, all my wishes
hitherto, have looked forward to precisely the juncture that seems now
to be approaching. My dreaming childhood dreamt of this. If you know
anything of me, you know how I sprung out of mystery, akin to none, a
thing concocted out of the elements, without visible agency; how all
through my boyhood I was alone; how I grew up without a root, yet
continually longing for one,--longing to be connected with somebody, and
never feeling myself so. Yet there was ever a looking forward to this
time at which I now find myself. If my next step were death, yet
while the path seemed to lead toward a certainty of establishing me in
connection with my race, I would take it. I have tried to keep down this
yearning, to stifle it, annihilate it, by making a position for myself,
by being my own fact; but I cannot overcome the natural horror of being
a creature floating in the air, attached to nothing; ever this feeling
that there is no reality in the life and fortunes, good or bad, of
a being so unconnected. There is not even a grave, not a heap of dry
bones, not a pinch of dust, with which I can claim kindred, unless I
find it here!”
“This is sad,” said the old man,--“this strong yearning, and nothing to
gratify it. Yet, I warn you, do not seek its gratification here. There
are delusions, snares, pitfalls, in this life. I warn you, quit the
search.”
“No,” said Redclyffe, “I will follow the mysterious clue that seems to
lead me on; and, even now, it pulls me one step further.”
“How is that?” asked the old man.
“It leads me onward even as far as the threshold--across the
threshold--of yonder mansion,” said Redclyffe.
“Step not across it; there is blood on that threshold!” exclaimed the
pensioner. “A bloody footstep emerging. Take heed that there be not as
bloody a one entering in!”
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