France -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
“It is true. I cannot wait. I need to know; I need to be happy at once,
and to know everything at once, and to be perfectly and forever happy.
Oh, that is what makes me suffer, not to be able to reach at a bound
complete knowledge, not to be able to rest in perfect felicity, freed
from scruples and doubts. Is it living to advance with tortoiselike
pace in the darkness, not to be able to enjoy an hour’s tranquillity,
without trembling at the thought of the coming anguish? No, no! All
knowledge and all happiness in a single day? Science has promised them
to us, and if she does not give them to us, then she fails in her
engagements.”
Then he, too, began to grow heated.
“But what you are saying is folly, little girl. Science is not
revelation. It marches at its human pace, its very effort is its glory.
And then it is not true that science has promised happiness.”
She interrupted him hastily.
“How, not true! Open your books up there, then. You know that I have
read them. Do they not overflow with promises? To read them one would
think we were marching on to the conquest of earth and heaven. They
demolish everything, and they swear to replace everything—and that by
pure reason, with stability and wisdom. Doubtless I am like the
children. When I am promised anything I wish that it shall be given me
at once. My imagination sets to work, and the object must be very
beautiful to satisfy me. But it would have been easy not to have
promised anything. And above all, at this hour, in view of my eager and
painful longing, it would be very ill done to tell me that nothing has
been promised me.”
He made a gesture, a simple gesture of protestation and impatience, in
the serene and silent night.
“In any case,” she continued, “science has swept away all our past
beliefs. The earth is bare, the heavens are empty, and what do you wish
that I should become, even if you acquit science of having inspired the
hopes I have conceived? For I cannot live without belief and without
happiness. On what solid ground shall I build my house when science
shall have demolished the old world, and while she is waiting to
construct the new? All the ancient city has fallen to pieces in this
catastrophe of examination and analysis; and all that remains of it is
a mad population vainly seeking a shelter among its ruins, while
anxiously looking for a solid and permanent refuge where they may begin
life anew. You must not be surprised, then, at our discouragement and
our impatience. We can wait no longer. Since tardy science has failed
in her promises, we prefer to fall back on the old beliefs, which for
centuries have sufficed for the happiness of the world.”
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