"Do not pain me!" begged Beatrice. "I love Hubert with the love that
comes but once in life; that man was nothing to me except that his
flattery, and the excitement of contriving to meet him, made my life
more endurable. He gave me a ring, and said in two years' time he
should return to claim me. He was going on a long voyage. Lily, I
felt relieved when he was gone--the novelty was over--I had grown
tired. Besides, when the glamour fell from my eyes, I was ashamed of
what I had done. I tried to forget all about him; every time the
remembrance of him came to my mind I drove it from me. I did not think
it possible he would ever return. It was but a summer's pastime. That
summer has darkened my life. Looking back, I own I did very wrong.
There is great blame attaching to me, but surely they who shut me out
from the living world were blameworthy also.
"Remember all through my story, darling, that I am not so good, not so
patient and gentle as you. I was restless at the Elms, like a bird in a
cage; you were content. I was vain, foolish, and willful; but, looking
back at the impetuous, imperious child, full of romance, untrained,
longing for the strife of life, longing for change, for excitement, for
gayety, chafing under restraint, I think there was some little excuse
for me. There was no excuse for what followed. When papa spoke to
us--you remember it, Lily--and asked so gently if we had either of us a
secret in our lives--when he promised to pardon anything, provided we
kept nothing from him--I ought to have told him then. There is no
excuse for that error. I was ashamed. Looking round upon the noble
faces hanging on the wall, looking at him, so proud, so dignified, I
could not tell him what his child had done. Oh, Lily, if I had told
him, I should not be kneeling here at your feet now."
Lillian made no reply, but pressed the proud, drooping figure more
closely to her side.
"I can hardly tell the rest," said Beatrice; "the words frighten me as
I utter them. This man, who has been the bane of my life, was going
away for two years. He was to claim me when he returned. I never
thought he would return; I was so happy, I could not believe it." Here
sobs choked her utterance.
Presently she continued: "Lily, he is here; he claims me, and also the
fulfillment of my promise to be his wife."
A look of unutterable dread came over the listener's fair, pitying face.
"He wrote to me three weeks since; I tried to put him off. He wrote
again this morning, and swears he will see me. He will be here tonight
at nine o'clock. Oh, Lily, save me, save me, or I shall die!"
Bitter sobs broke from the proud lips.
"I never knelt to any one before," Beatrice said; "I kneel to you, my
sister. No one else can help me. You must see him for me, give him a
letter from me, and tell him I am very ill. It is no untruth, Lily. I
am ill, my brain burns, and my heart is cold with fear. Will you do
this for me?"
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