"I would rather almost give you my life," said Lillian gently.
"Oh, do not say that, Lily! Do you know what there is at stake? Do you
remember papa's words--that, if ever he found one of us guilty of any
deceit, or involved in any clandestine love affair, even if it broke
his heart he would send the guilty one from him and never see her
again? Think, darling, what it would be for me to leave
Earlescourt--to leave all the magnificence I love so dearly, and drag
out a weary life at the Elms. Do you think I could brook Lord Earle's
angry scorn and Lady Helena's pained wonder? Knowing our father as you
know him, do you believe he would pardon me?"
"I do not," replied Lily, sadly.
"That is not all," continued Beatrice. "I might bear anger, scorn, and
privation, but, Lily, if this miserable secret is discovered, Lord
Airlie will cease to love me. He might have forgiven me if I had told
him at first; he would not know that I had lied to him and deceived
him. I can not lose him--I can not give him up. For our mother's
sake, for my sake, help me, Lily. Do what I have asked!"
"If I do it," said Lillian, "it will give you but a few days' reprieve;
it will avail nothing; he will be here again."
"I shall think of some means of escape in a few days," answered
Beatrice wistfully. "Something must happen, Lily, fortune could not be
so cruel to me; it could not rob me of my love. If I can not free
myself, I shall run away. I would rather suffer anything than face
Lord Airlie or my father. Say you will help me for my love's sake! Do
not let me lose my love!"
"I will help you," said Lillian; "it is against my better
judgment--against my idea of right--but I can not refuse you. I will
see the man, and give him your letter. Beatrice, let me persuade you.
You can not free yourself. I see no way--running away is all
nonsense--but to tell Lord Earle and your lover; anything would be
better than to live as you do, a drawn sword hanging over your heart.
Tell them, and trust to their kindness; at least you will have peace of
mind then. They will prevent him from annoying you."
"I can not," she said, and the breath came gasping from her lips.
"Lillian, you do not know what Lord Airlie is to me. I could never
meet his anger. If ever you love any one you will understand better.
He is everything to me. I would suffer any sorrow, even death, rather
than see his face turned coldly from me."
She loosened her grasp of Lillian's hands and fell upon the floor,
weeping bitterly and passionately. Her sister, bending over her, heard
the pitiful words--"My love, my love! I can not lose my love!"
The passionate weeping ceased, and the proud, sad face grew calm and
still.
"You can not tell what I have suffered, Lily," she said, humbly. "See,
my pride is all beaten down, only those who have had a secret, eating
heart and life away, can tell what I have endured. A few more days of
agony like this, and I shall be free forever from Hugh Fernely."
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