"I mean, it was all over so quickly that I took it to heart like a
fool, and became moping and low. I sent for Bella then, and got her
to come and see me constantly in the evening, when our work for the
day was over; and I began again to talk to her about you, not telling
her anything about what had happened, but talking just as I used in
the old days, only a little more passionately perhaps; for my usual
quiet nature was aroused at the thought of the way in which you had
treated me, and at the idea of what might have been--what might be yet,
I suppose I thought to myself; for one night I told Bella all about
my coming to you in South Molton Street, the declaration that I made,
and the way in which you received it. Then I told her of that horrible
interview, when we met in the street, and when you treated me as though
I had been a servant. She was naturally angry about this, and talked
the usual stuff which people do in such cases, advising me not to think
of you any more; that you could not appreciate my worth; that there
were plenty of other women who--you know the style of condolence on
such occasions. I seemed to agree with her; and I suppose I actually
did so for some little time; but then the what-might-be feeling took
possession of me, and I began idiotically to buoy myself up with a
hope that you might have spoken hurriedly and without thought, that I
might have been proud and hasty; and, in fact, that there might yet be
a chance of future happiness for me. Bella must have discovered this
almost as soon as I felt it; for she seemed to discourage my questions
about you, and my evident inclination to forget what had passed, and
to endeavour to renew my acquaintance with you. She was very quiet and
kind at first--she was kind throughout, I suppose I ought to say; but
when she found that my feverish longing to see you again was coming
to a height, that I was bent upon imploring you to reconsider your
determination, she spoke openly to me, and told me what I would sooner
have died than have heard."
Daisy looked up quickly and angrily at him.
"And what," she said scornfully, "may this wonderful communication have
been?"
"I suppose you do not know Bella's share in all that has taken place,
or you would not ask the question," said John.
"I am not aware that Bella Merton has any share in anything that
concerns me," said Daisy. "It is useless speaking any further in
riddles. You promised you would speak out; hitherto you have done so,
and you must continue to the end."
"I will," said John Merton; "I came to do it, and I will carry it
through at whatever pain it may be for me to speak, for you to hear. My
sister Bella, then, has informed me that a man--one of those whom you
call gentlemen, but from whom I withhold the name--has ventured to make
dishonourable proposals to you; in plain terms, to ask you to live with
him as his mistress."
"Mr. Merton!" cried Daisy, in a wild access of rage, "how dare----"
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