Dream Tales and Prose PoemsTurgenev, Ivan Sergeevich
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Dream Tales and Prose Poems
Turgenev, Ivan Sergeevich
Russia -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Turgenev, Ivan Sergeevich, 1818-1883 -- Translations into English
Then I got up, and, getting out of the house, I turned along the walk by
which--of that I had no doubt--she had gone.
All was darkness about me; the night had already fallen. But on the damp
sand of the path a roundish object could be discerned--bright red even
through the mist.
I stooped down. It was a fresh, new-blown rose. Two hours before I had seen
this very rose on her bosom.
I carefully picked up the flower that had fallen in the mud, and, going
back to the drawing-room, laid it on the table before her chair.
And now at last she came back, and with light footsteps, crossing the whole
room, sat down at the table.
Her face was both paler and more vivid; her downcast eyes, that looked
somehow smaller, strayed rapidly in happy confusion from side to side.
She saw the rose, snatched it up, glanced at its crushed, muddy petals,
glanced at me, and her eyes, brought suddenly to a standstill, were bright
with tears.
‘What are you crying for?’ I asked.
‘Why, see this rose. Look what has happened to it.’
Then I thought fit to utter a profound remark.
‘Your tears will wash away the mud,’ I pronounced with a significant
expression.
‘Tears do not wash, they burn,’ she answered. And turning to the hearth she
flung the rose into the dying flame.
‘Fire burns even better than tears,’ she cried with spirit; and her lovely
eyes, still bright with tears, laughed boldly and happily.
I saw that she too had been in the fire.
_April 1878._
TO THE MEMORY OF U. P. VREVSKY
On dirt, on stinking wet straw under the shelter of a tumble-down barn,
turned in haste into a camp hospital, in a ruined Bulgarian village, for
over a fortnight she lay dying of typhus.
She was unconscious, and not one doctor even looked at her; the sick
soldiers, whom she had tended as long as she could keep on her legs, in
their turn got up from their pestilent litters to lift a few drops of water
in the hollow of a broken pot to her parched lips.
She was young and beautiful; the great world knew her; even the highest
dignitaries had been interested in her. Ladies had envied her, men had
paid her court ... two or three had loved her secretly and truly. Life had
smiled on her; but there are smiles that are worse than tears.
A soft, tender heart ... and such force, such eagerness for sacrifice! To
help those who needed help ... she knew of no other happiness ... knew not
of it, and had never once known it. Every other happiness passed her by.
But she had long made up her mind to that; and all aglow with the fire of
unquenchable faith, she gave herself to the service of her neighbours.
What hidden treasure she buried there in the depth of her heart, in her
most secret soul, no one ever knew; and now, of course, no one will ever
know.
Ay, and what need? Her sacrifice is made ... her work is done.
But grievous it is to think that no one said thanks even to her dead body,
though she herself was shy and shrank from all thanks.
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