Bildungsromans; Psychological fiction; Young women -- Fiction
‘Please don’t be sorry for me.’ She noted her own voice, icy and polite.
Geraldine had inserted a thin, yellow cigarette in the holder and was
searching for a match.
‘Here,’ said Judith. She got up, took the matchbox from the mantelpiece
and struck a light. Geraldine stooped her head down over the little
flare. White lids, black curling lashes, broad cheek-bones, Egyptian
lips--the heaviness, the thick waxen texture of the whole face: Judith
saw them all with an aching and terrible intensity, her eyes clinging to
the head bowed above her hand. She should have smelt like a gardenia.
‘Thank you,’ said Geraldine. She lifted her head, narrowed her eyes and
puffed out smoke, moving and stretching her mouth faintly round the
amber. She smoked like a man.
Judith sat down again.
Geraldine seemed now very much at her ease. She leaned against the
mantelpiece, dominating the room: and she seemed of gigantic height and
significance.
‘Are you a friend of Jennifer’s?’ she said.
‘Jennifer--is a person I know well.’
She looked at Judith as if in surprise at her tone and manner.
‘I had no idea of that. She never mentioned you.’
For a moment that dealt a blinding blow, with its instantaneous
implications of dishonesty and indifference. But she repeated:
‘I’ve known her well for two years. You can ask her. She _might_ admit
it.’ And as she spoke the last words she thought with sudden excitement:
‘Just as I never mentioned Roddy....’
‘Oh, I can’t get anything out of her,’ said Geraldine and added
truculently: ‘You might as well tell me what it’s all about.’
‘I have nothing whatever to tell you. I don’t know why you’ve come. I’d
like _you_ to tell me what it’s all about--or else go away, please.’ She
was conscious all at once of a terrible inward trembling, and got up
again. The other watched her in silence, and she added: ‘I haven’t been
near her--since that night in her room. I’ve kept away--you know that
night....’
‘What night?’
Judith broke into a sort of laugh; and then checked herself with a vast
effort: for the suppressed hysteria of weeks was climbing upwards within
her and if it broke loose, it might never, never cease.
‘Well--one night,’ she said, ‘I thought perhaps you remembered.’
There was not a flicker on Geraldine’s face. She must be very stupid or
very cruel.
‘What beats me,’ said Geraldine, ‘is why this dead set against
me?--against her and me. What do you want to interfere with us for? It’s
not your business, any of you. I thought I’d come and tell you so.’
There was a curious coarseness about her: almost a vulgarity. It was
difficult to combat.
Judith lifted her eyes and looked at her in silence.
‘So you’ve all sent Jennifer to Coventry.’ She laughed. ‘It’s
marvellous. A female institution is really marvellous. At least it would
be if it weren’t so nauseating.’ Still Judith was silent, and she added
contemptuously:
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