Bildungsromans; Psychological fiction; Young women -- Fiction
Charlie had taken off his coat, and they were holding it up as a sail.
With a pang of dismay Judith realized for the first time the ominous
strength of the wind. It filled the coat full, and Mariella and Charlie,
bearing it high in front of them, went sailing straight across the pond.
They could not stop. They shrieked in laughter and agony and went ever
faster. They were borne to the pond’s edge, stubbed their skates and
fell violently in a heap on the grass.
Charlie lay on his back and moaned.
‘I’ve got a pain. I’ve got a pain. Oh, Mariella! Oh, God! Oh,
all you people! The anguish, the _sensation_!--like the Scenic
Railway--transports of horror and bliss. I thought: Never, _never_ shall
we stop. We went faster, and fas.... Oh, Mariella, your _face_.... I
shall _die_....’
He writhed with laughter, the tears poured down his face. ‘I t-_tried_
to say: _drop_ the c---- I hadn’t any _voice_--Oh, what a _feeling_!...
those skimming dreams.... O God!’
He shut his eyes exhausted.
Then soon he had to try again. Then they all tried, and were a nuisance
to the other skaters. Every one looked at Charlie, and nobody was
annoyed because of his beauty and radiant spirits, and his charming
apologies when he got in the way.
Judith ached with giggling; even Mariella and Julian were wiping their
eyes. Charlie was so excited that he looked quite feverish. In his
enthusiasm he threw his arms wide and cried:
‘Oh, darlings!’--and Judith was thrilled because she felt herself
included in the endearment.
‘You know,’ said Julian, ‘you’ll be sick to-night, Charlie, if you go on
like this.’
So he was still the one to be sick.
A small cold mongrel dog came shivering, wriggling across the ice and
rolled over before him, waving limp deprecatory paws. Charlie picked it
up and wrapped it in his coat, crooning to it and kissing it.
‘Oh, what sweet paws you have, my chap. Mariella, his paws are
particularly heart-breaking. Do look,--all blunt and tufted and
uncontrolled. Don’t they melt you? Poor chap,--darling chap. You come
along with me for a skate.’
He skated away with the dog in his arms, talking his special foolish
language to it, and colliding with people at every other step.
Oh, he was strange, thought Judith, looking after him. She had no key to
him: she could only dissect him and make notes, learn him by heart and
marvel at him,--never hope to meet him some day suddenly, at a chance
look, a trifling word, with that secret “Ah!”--that shock of inmost
mysterious recognition, as she had once met Roddy.
She thought of Roddy dancing in London, urban and alarming. She saw him
distinctly, his dark head, his yellowish pallor, his smile; and wished
wildly that he had come instead of Charlie: Charlie who troubled her,
made her heavy-hearted with the burden of his lavish indifferent
brilliance.
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