Bildungsromans; Psychological fiction; Young women -- Fiction
Half way back to the house she stopped suddenly, overcome with
bewilderment; for that had been Roddy’s self, not his shadow made by the
imagination. The solitudes of the darkness now held their very forms,
were mysterious with their voices where for so long only imagined shapes
had hovered in the emptiness.... They had slipped back in that lucid,
credulous life between waking and sleep out of which you start to ponder
whether the dream was after all reality--or whether reality be nothing
but a dream.
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Next day, with unreal ease, she met Mariella in the village. She came
out of the chemist’s shop, and they were face to face. There she was,
tall and erect, with her dazed green-blue crystal eyes looking without
shadow or stain up-upon the world from between dark lashes; her eyes,
that knew neither good nor evil,--the icy eyes of an angel or a devil.
Under her black hat her short hair curled outwards, her pale smooth face
preserved its childish oval, her lips just closed in their soft
faint-coloured bow. The mask was still there, more exquisite than of
old; yet when she smiled in greeting, something strange looked out for a
moment, as if her face in one of its rare breakings-up had been a little
wounded, and still retained the slightest, disturbed expression.
She seemed pleased.
‘Judith!... isn’t it?’
‘Mariella!’
‘Then you _are_ still here. We wondered.’
‘Yes. Still here.’
She seemed at a loss for what to say, and looked away, shy and ill at
ease, her eyes glancing about, trying to hide.
‘We--we were wondering about you and we thought you must be away. We
remembered you were brainy and Julian said you told him you were going
to college or somewhere, so we thought p’raps that’s where you were. We
thought you must be dreadfully frightening and learned by now. Aren’t
you?’
‘Oh no!’
What reply was possible to such silliness?
‘You were always doing lessons,’ she said in a puzzled voice. Then with
a smile: ‘Do you remember Miss Pim?’
‘Yes. Her false teeth.’
‘Her _smell_.’ She wrinkled her small nose. ‘I used to sit and get
whiffs of her, and think of tortures for her. No wonder I was backward.’
She gave her little giggle and added nervously again: ‘Look here, when
will you come and see us? We’d like it. This afternoon?’
‘Oh, Mariella, I’d love to.’
‘They’re all there. D’you remember everyone? Julian was demobilized a
little while ago. He’s going back to Oxford in the autumn.’
‘And Martin and Roddy?’
‘Yes, they’re both there. Roddy’s just back from Paris. He’s supposed to
be studying drawing there. Martin ought to be at Cambridge, but he’s had
appendicitis rather badly so he’s missing the term.’
‘Are you glad to be back here?’
‘Oh yes, we all like it awfully. And it seems to suit the infant.’
‘That’s good.’
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