Bildungsromans; Psychological fiction; Young women -- Fiction
She smiled still in her immense mysterious amusement. She saw him look
up at the poplar from whence the owl had come, and as he did so his
whole image was flung imperishably on her mind. She saw the portrait of
a young man, with features a trifle blurred and indeterminate, as if he
had just waked up; the dark hair faintly ruffled and shining, the
expression secret-looking, with something proud and sensual and cynical,
far older than his years, in the short full curve of his lips and the
heaviness of his under-lids. She saw all the strange blend of likeness
and unlikeness to the boy Roddy which he presented without a clue.
He caught her smile and smiled back, all his queer face breaking up in
intimate twinklings, and the mouth parting and going downward in its
bitter-sweet way. They smiled into each other’s eyes; and all at once
the light in his seemed to gather to a point and become fixed, dwelling
on her for a moment.
‘Well?’ he said at last; for they still lingered uncertainly, as if
aware of something between them that kept them hesitating, watching,
listening subconsciously, each waiting on the other for a decisive
action.
He spread out his hands and looked down at them; a nervous gesture and
look she remembered with a pang.
‘Yes, we must go,’ she said softly.
At supper he sat opposite to her, and twinkled at her incessantly, as if
encouraging her to continue to share with him a secret joke. But,
confused amongst them all, she had lost her sense of vast amusement and
assurance; she was unhappy because he was a stranger laughing at her and
she could not laugh back.
Beside him was the face of Martin, staring solemnly, with absorption,
watching her mouth when she spoke, her eyes when she glanced at him.
Thank God the meal was soon over.
* * * * *
A gay clipped exhilarating dance tune sounded from the drawing-room.
Roddy had turned on the gramophone. He came and took Mariella without a
word and they glided off together. Judith stayed with Julian and Martin
in the verandah, looking in at them. She was frightened; she could not
dance, so she would be no use to Roddy.
‘Do you dance, Julian?’
‘No. At least only with two people.’
Alas,--wounding reminder of his elegant unknown world where she had no
place!... She blushed in the dusk.
‘Julian’s very lordly about his dancing;’ said Martin. ‘I expect he’s
rotten really.’
‘It may be,’ said Julian, stung and irritable. ‘It may be that I
therefore bestow the burden of my gyrations on the only two creatures of
my acquaintance whose rottenness equals mine. It may be that I derive
more satisfaction from the idea of this artistic whole of rottenness
than from the physical delights of promiscuous contact.’
‘It may be,’ said Martin pleasantly, unperturbed.
Julian hunched his shoulders and went away, clouded by a dreadful mood.
‘Poor old Ju,’ said Martin softly.
‘Yes, poor thing.’ Her voice implied how well she understood, and he
looked grateful.
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