Bildungsromans; Psychological fiction; Young women -- Fiction
She was very small and he, very kind and noble, was taking her to hear
the child-genius play. Her excitement was too great to bear: she too
would be a child-genius; and when the violin came it wrought on her so
violently that she was sick where she sat. He had been deeply
disappointed in her, his kindness and nobility turned to disgust.
At night, every night for a long time, with the night light burning, he
had sat on her bed and sung softly to her. He sang ‘Uncle Tom Cobley.’
“_All along out along down along lea_....”
Oh, the haunting echo, the loneliness of that! Over and over he sang the
names of the mysterious company of men, but so softly that the slipping
syllables wove round her hazily and fled before she caught them.
Then he sang of a golden apple.
“_Evoe, evoe, wonderful way
For subduing--subduing the hearts of men_....”
_Evoe, evoe_.... The sound started a pang, a question, a stir of rich
sadness that went aching on, through the twice-sung whisper of the
sibilants, right on after the fall, the lingering soft pause and fall of
the last words.
At the end he sang “Good-night ladies.” When he had finished she said
“Again”; and he sang it again and yet again, always more low, till
finally it was nothing but a plaintive sigh. She lay listening with eyes
shut, weeping with sorrow and delight.
“_Good-night, ladies, we’re going to leave you now_--”
That was so sad, so sad!
“_Merrily we’ll roll along, roll along, roll along,
Merrily we’ll roll along on the deep--blue--sea._”
She saw a dim swaying far-stretching line of lovely ladies all in white,
waving good-bye upon a dark sea-shore. The great ship faded away over
the waves, bearing further and further the deep-throated chorus of
singers. The long line swayed, reached vainly forward. Their white hands
glimmered. She saw them fade, alas! fade, vanish out of sight.
Oh, he had known how to stir mystery in a child. He had turned sound
inside out for her, making undreamed-of music,--and pictures besides,
and light and colour. He had seemed to forget her for weeks at a time,
but when he had remembered, what a more than compensating richness had
come into life! She had planned to grow so beautiful and accomplished
that he would be proud of her and want her with him always. They were to
have travelled together, famous father and not unworthy daughter, and
they were to have discussed very intellectual topics and she was to have
looked after him when the steps, going upstairs, started, really
started, to have that feebleness.... He was to have lived to be very old
and go upstairs on her arm, cherished by her.
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