E. P. Roe: Reminiscences of his LifeRoe, Mary A. (Mary Abigail)
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E. P. Roe: Reminiscences of his Life
Roe, Mary A. (Mary Abigail)
Roe, Edward Payson, 1838-1888
and that I had better stay there. As a light came I saw something
white lying near the wall. I first thought it was a dog, and going
up, I stirred the object with my foot. On looking closer, I found
that it was a ghastly pile of arms and legs from the
amputating-room. But I had seen so much of blood and horror during
the day that I had grown callous. I quietly spread my blanket
within ten feet of the bloody heap, and listened sadly to the
shrieks and groans from the hospital above till I fell asleep. The
re-opening of the battle on Sunday morning awoke me, and as I was
rolling up my blankets, a shell bursting near warned me to hasten.
I joined the regiment, and with it recrossed the river. We have
since been doing picket duty on the Rappahannock.
[Illustration: E. P. ROE AS CHAPLAIN, AGE 26.]
"Many a careless, light-hearted soldier wore an anxious, troubled
look that day, as we stood facing the rebel batteries, and many a
loud-mouthed, coarse, swearing fellow was quiet and pale. But I saw
no flinching or skulking. You at the North, who cosily read about
battles in an arm-chair, know little of a man's sensations who
stands in front of the enemy's guns. He hears shot and shell scream
and explode over and around him. Before him arises the sulphurous
smoke of the conflict. From out of that obscurity he knows that at
any moment some swift messenger of death may be speeding on its way
to his heart. He thinks of unfinished plans, of bright prospects
and hopes for the future. His home, its beloved inmates, and the
forms and features of those friends that hold the chief places
within his soul rise up before him, and he knows that at any moment
he may be snatched from all these, and lie a mangled, bleeding
corpse upon the ground. And then come graver and still more solemn
thoughts of the shadowy world beyond, and 'conscience, which makes
cowards of us all,' awakes. In the mad excitement and tumult of a
charge, everything is forgotten. When patiently standing under
fire, everything is remembered, and this, of all that the soldier
has to do and endure, is the most difficult and dreaded."
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