American fiction -- 19th century; Dime novels; Popular literature
Editha was, he knew, nearly or quite twenty now; she had already been in
society nearly two years, and, perchance, she had already given her
heart to some worthy, fortunate man, who could place her in a position
befitting her beauty and culture; and what business had _he_, who would
henceforth be a marked man—a pariah among men—to imagine that she would
think of him except, perhaps, with a passing feeling of pity?
But even though he reasoned thus with himself, and tried to school his
mind to think that he must never presume to believe that Editha could
cherish anything of regard for him, even though she had signed herself
“ever your friend,” yet he experienced a dull feeling of despair
creeping over him, and even the prospect of his approaching liberation
could not cheer him.
He had a little box in which he treasured some dried and faded
flowers—the last he had received from her—and he looked at these
occasionally with a mournful smile and a swelling tenderness in his
heart, and his eyes grew misty with unshed tears as he remembered the
sweet-faced, impulsive girl who had so generously stood up and defended
him in that crowded court-room.
He remembered how she had grieved over her own reluctantly given
evidence, which had gone so far toward convicting him—how she had laid
her hot cheek upon his hand and sobbed out her plea for forgiveness, and
her look of firm faith and trust in him when she had told him that he
did not need to prove his innocence to her, she would take his word in
the face of the whole world.
A strange thrill always went through him as he thought of the burning
tears she had shed for him and his sad fate, and which had rained upon
the hand which she had held clasped in both of hers.
It was a sort of sad pleasure to look back upon all this, and think how
kind she had been, and in his own heart he knew that he loved her as he
could never love another; but he had no right to think of her in that
way. If she had only remembered him occasionally, it would not be quite
so hard to bear; but she had not kept her promise—she _had_ forgotten
him in spite of her eager protestations that she would not.
He would gladly have gone away from the city as soon as he should be
liberated, and thus avoid the pain of meeting and parting with her, but
she had written and requested it, and he must have his package again,
while he would treasure any message which his kind friend, Richard
Forrester, had left for him.
His eyes dwelt fondly over those three last words, “ever your friend,”
even though he sighed as he read them.
They were stereotyped, what she might kindly have written to any
unfortunate person; yet his face did brighten, and they were like
precious ointment to his bruised spirit, and cheered the few remaining
weeks of his stay not a little.
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