New York (N.Y.) -- Fiction; Romans à clef; Spouses -- Fiction; Women novelists -- Fiction
I had slipped away to stop Eva before he should overhear more. She was
indulging herself in an impersonal analysis of personal experiences.
I knew that in her case experiences became impersonal as soon as she
had stepped out of them. I heard her say: “I’ve found myself thinking,
in the midst of tenderness, that there can be nothing in the universe
without the right words to convey it. But I’ve found that the search
for the words ruins the emotion. Life is so awful.”
Mapes had asked disinterestedly: “Don’t you offend your husband?”
I touched her shoulder. But she had said--impatient of the presence
of both Spencer Mapes and me because we were not in the centre of
her preoccupation: “I’ve often told him what it was that made me so
thoughtful.”
Mapes had relapsed into his almost soundless laughter. “At times, I’m
sorry for him!”
I said sternly: “Your husband is waiting for you. I think he’s ready to
go home.”
She had turned away indifferently. “I won’t go yet.”
He had left without her. He must, however, have promptly realized that
he had set his feet on another stage of a progress the end of which
he himself did not yet see; for he entered the penthouse at about
this time. Beyond an indifferent nod, she paid no attention. She had
been over in a corner talking with Spencer Mapes, and they had been
joined by Addis Wickersham and James Pomeroy; we had heard Addis
Wickersham’s splendid voice intoning the service of literature. Over
our corner a silence fell at his entrance. I suspect that the others
were thinking, as I did, that Nicholas Van Suydam was in a position of
minor awkwardness. If he himself realized this he gave no sign. He had
a graceful manner; and on this occasion I frankly admired the kindness
which actuated his attention to Molly Underhill. Since our arrival at
the penthouse, Molly had lurked, prowled, and ostentatiously looked
over the books, but had seemed unaware of the presence of her friends.
Her wide smile of welcome for Nicholas was at the same time a challenge
to Eva, upon whom she at once turned a triumphant glare.
The irregularly shaped, low-ceiled room was already thick with tobacco
smoke, which wavered into a canopy over our heads, and joined the
banked shadows in the ell, and added to the nervous discomfort of
finding oneself in the silence of a penthouse. We would have sworn
that we heard the silence. The various groups of people broke up, and
formed again, and evidently gave it up as hopeless: they stood where
they found themselves, waiting for something else. In this way, Eva and
Nicholas were thrown together.
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