New York (N.Y.) -- Fiction; Romans à clef; Spouses -- Fiction; Women novelists -- Fiction
Urged by a spiritual necessity for physical support, I went over
to lean against another door jamb; and from the next room I heard
Anthony Bloodgood making love to a New York girl whom we knew as one
of those who are “sometimes going to write because they must express
themselves.” Anthony’s voice was strange to me; it was as if his heart
were singing because he was with her, and I recalled having heard that
he had been in love with her since her school days. He said: “When
we’re married, Janny, we can have these people at our home.” If she
replied, I missed it; but Anthony’s sense of the magnanimity of his
conduct again caused his voice to ring out boldly. “You don’t know it,
Janny, but I’m not a brute. I know all about it, loveliest! I’m not
going to scold you. I’ve done it myself, you see.”
“You!” The girl’s laughter was convulsive. “You! Oh---- I can’t bear
it!”
Indulgently, he shared her amusement. “Carouse around a bit? You don’t
think a chap can reach my age without having racketed around town; do
you?”
All men spoke the same words to all girls; all men, in more or less
roundabout ways, boasted of their early peccadillos. I was mildly
amused. Glancing around for some answering smile--for this was the only
comic relief of the evening--I met the eyes of a woman who had that
instant taken up a position which enabled her to watch the pair. This
woman, an interior decorator, was herself the rarest decoration of any
room. She had a white face to which she added emphasis by her lack
of the slightest touch of rouge. Her hair was densely black with no
highlights and with not a trace of the blue sheen which is the beauty
of actually black hair. Her eyes, a burning black without glitter, and
exceptionally large, revealed at this moment a wild intensity. She
looked like some ancient conception of a goddess who takes away, but
never bestows, life. I remembered that her hand was small and like a
bird’s claw, and that it was always bone-dry. This woman, then, stood
looking intently at the girl Janny, and the girl left Anthony Bloodgood
and went to her.
The studio was more peaceful than this, although Florence had been
right about the tension in the air--tension flowing after me, catching
up with me, as I found a chair in a comparatively hidden nook behind
the piano. But in the midst of my burst of pure gratitude for the chair
I realized that my host held nicely suspended over the crown of my head
a beer bottle, or some such missile. The ludicrous feature of it--if
one excepts the character of the weapon--was that he looked thoughtful.
“Go on!” I instructed him. “Do it! You haven’t the idea that I care if
you bash my head in, have you?”
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