New York (N.Y.) -- Fiction; Romans à clef; Spouses -- Fiction; Women novelists -- Fiction
“Heugh!” Pentreath grunted, and made off down the room. I scrambled
from the chair. With elaborate carelessness I lit a cigarette; and I
noticed, with impersonal interest, that my hand shook. He had, then,
frightened me. I hurried to tell Florence, who had come from the
bedroom, also carelessly smoking, that he had made me see that bad as
existence was I liked it. “He knocked into a cocked hat all that Yoga
stuff you forever tease me about. I wonder what would be happening to
me now, if he’d come down with that beer bottle?” And she speculated,
but indifferently, on whether I was unstrung because of the beer bottle
being capable of causing pain, or because of the tottering of my belief.
Eva came up to us with a reproach. “Why didn’t one of you make me go
home? I have a feeling of something menacing. I can’t understand what
is going on. Tony Bloodgood is looking queer, and hunting for Nick: and
where--I want to know--is Nick? Oh, Dinah--you always take up for him;
but even you must acknowledge that he shouldn’t go off and leave me to
face this sort of thing alone! Some people may be able to bear this
sort of thing; but if you realized how things affect me----” She went
on about artists being extraordinarily sensitive to impressions.
Florence asked if she did not think we had to hear a lot of that; and
turned on her heel and left us. Enviously I gazed after her: I never
acted on my impulses, and they died quickly. With a sigh, I suggested
that we go down to the sidewalk and get some air.
On the steep and winding stairway another fugitive rushed past us and
flung open the street door. We reached the sidewalk as the girl Janny
was being handed into a cruising taxi by the night watchman on the
block. The watchman treated us to a leer. “Lor!” he remarked affably.
“I’m used ter ladies bustin’ outer that there house! I knows, when I
sees ’em atearin’ for the street, I better git ’em a taxi in a jiffy.”
We stayed out long enough for a cigarette. I think that we were both
reluctant to reënter the house. The watchman hung around, senilely
communicative. “It pays ter be a watchman, on some blocks of this here
town. You know this town well, ladies?”
The walls of the winding stairway were painted with beasts and birds
unnaturally entangled amid unnatural forests. With every step that
we mounted we became more apprehensive. But Eva said: “We’re being
foolish; aren’t we? There’s no bogy lying in wait for us. But I’ll own
up, Dinah, that there are times, of late, when I feel afraid in the
dark. It must be this damnable depression you forever talk about. I
feel---- Well, I don’t feel natural.”
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