New York (N.Y.) -- Fiction; Romans à clef; Spouses -- Fiction; Women novelists -- Fiction
In the twitch of Molly’s sharp elbow there was a mental jog to my ribs.
“Do--please--ask that question of the barkeep?” she modestly suggested
to the strange gentleman. She had a trick of waiting, hanging on a
man’s lips until he said something personal to her. Her long eyes
languished, now, at the stranger. Triumph lit her face, and I saw that
again she had misunderstood a man. She had a passion for translating
all masculine glances into the caresses of love.
Winnie whispered to me: “Notice a change in her?”
“What’s it from?” I asked.
“Ah that’s what we don’t know,” said Winnie. “She’s trying her best to
make us believe that she is involved in some affair. And of course her
telling it makes it sound as if it were not true, and we know her so
well that we are sure she’d tell it if it were true.”
“She looks wretchedly,” I said in the same low voice.
“You’ll find we all do,” said Winnie briefly.
I laughed. “Eva’s husband, I daresay you mean me to infer?”
“Wait till you see,” she told me ominously.
I asked her if Spencer Mapes were still Eva’s encroaching background.
“Oh, encroaching!” she groaned.
As he came up to us, I endeavoured to hold my greeting to a friendly
indifference. He looked as if he were concealing some deep anxiety, and
said at once: “I am thankful you’ve at last returned, Dinah. I always
feel that you can be counted on to stand by Eva.”
My recollections of Eva Litchfield, which before I had believed to be
clear as daylight, had, through this confusion of innuendo, become a
jumble of muggy half-tones. I thought: For God’s sake, Eva, why do you
allow people to so use up your vital energy, blotting the flow of your
inspiration as such interruptions must do some time if they haven’t
done it already? From a long continued warm friendship, my attachment
to her flared at this moment into idealization. I reproached myself
that invariably I had been conscious of listening to her perplexities
with avidity. I had said to her: “It comes down to this: one isn’t
a novelist unless one has a consuming and all-embracing curiosity
about people--all people--even those of whom one is fond--every human
worm and every superhuman bore?” She had replied with her charming
seriousness: “Of course.” And all the time I was conscious that she
herself had no pure and cold-blooded curiosity about people whose
problems did not touch her; when she listened to the recitals of those
outside her life, she did it with warmth. Her good heart showed in her
tolerance of the everlasting jabber of her friends--said I to myself,
glancing forbiddingly at those whom Molly had invited to her little
dinner in my honour. Unfortunately for my peace of mind, I occasionally
see when I am making a fool of myself. “Snap out of it, you hypocrite!”
I began on myself. “You have every intention of hanging around Eva, of
questioning, listening, and otherwise poking your nose--which Molly
is right in dubbing a misfit--into things that are in no way your
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