New York (N.Y.) -- Fiction; Romans à clef; Spouses -- Fiction; Women novelists -- Fiction
I remembered. Along the front of the apartment house across the street
the fresh summer awnings had been lifted to admit the cool breeze of
the end of the day, and through these unveiled windows heads thrust,
and looked up, and drew in again. There was rain in the air, but it was
across the river. I said: “You like to stay at home when you’re not
working. But we reverse it, you see; we are obliged to reverse it: we
stay at home when we work.” Everything about us was the reverse of all
things about him. I wondered if he had seen it, for himself, and that
it was at this he cavilled, in his mind, during his disputes with Eva.
He replied with his enforced light touch. “As to work--I spent a large
part of today leaning out my office window and contemplating the
city. Now, don’t, please, say what Eva would promptly say to confound
me--that I had led her to believe I worked while at my office. There
are times when a man must dream; and one dreams in the most tranquil
spot. I would fulfill a better purpose if I sat in the park, or on
Riverside, and absorbed the city rearing itself above me; but by doing
this wise thing I should be flying in the face of the convention
that a business man is always busy. A man, if a proper fellow, sits
behind his desk continuously, a portentous scowl on his face and in
his heart a mad desire to get off and go fishing. He’s the typical
business magnate: the scowl tells you so. Always on the job--a man
to be depended on.” He quirked one eyebrow in a way to which Eva had
called my attention; I had the idea that he was quirking his eyebrow
at himself because of more of an inner discontent than could be
accounted for by his differences with Eva. And he then came out with an
astounding question: “Do you ever dream--in private--you writing folk?”
I drawled: “At the last tea at which we met, I believe I remember
Florence Quincy at the wailing wall: ‘Haven’t I the right to my
privacy? Haven’t I the right to the time to work?’”
“All tosh,” he countered promptly. “It is in effect, the litany of
literary people: ‘Oh dear God, grant me the time for writing!’ You
aren’t angry, are you?”
I acknowledged that we were amusing. “Oh--I mean, unconsciously so.”
I was, at the same time, acknowledging to my sense of fair play that
I had not expected to find his attitude towards us so disparaging and
that I had no right to object to what he might say.
“You’re a breed set apart, by your own wish, from mankind: what are
your sources of laughter?” he asked with a faint uneasiness. “You
nervously organized sensitives--to quote my wife--who cling together,
working each other into tantrums, preying on each other, wrecking each
other: tell me, do you like each other?”
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