Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Mothers and daughters -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
This was the burden of her sorrow; and many times in the day, and during
the night-watches she kept so tirelessly, Gertie knelt and prayed that
every sin, however great, committed by the wretched woman, might be
forgiven and washed away in Jesus’ blood.
“Though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be white as snow,” she
repeated often in the ears of the dying woman, who would reply:
“Yes, I know, I know, but some sin beyond hope, and I am one of these.
All my life has been a _lie_, and I meant it should be. And now it is
all thick darkness whichever way I look. I never did a genuine good
thing in my life. All was for effect, except my love for _you_, Gertie;
there was no motive for that. My love for you was real, and when you
left me alone in England I tried once to pray, truly pray on my knees
alone when nobody saw me; but something whispered, mockingly, ‘_You
pray?_’ and I did not try again. Oh, what shall I do? What shall I do,
the horror is so great?”
“Jesus came to save sinners, even the chief of sinners, and He will do
it; He said so, and He never told a lie,” Gertie whispered, softly.
And Mrs. Barrett caught the “chief of sinners” as if she had never heard
it before, and held to it, and kept repeating to herself, “The _chief_
of sinners; that’s I; He must have meant me, the very chiefest.”
Then she would ask Gertie to pray,—that the sin might be forgiven, and
_the girl_ kept from harm, and without knowing at all for whom she
prayed or what particular sin, Gertie did pray many times, and did her
best to soothe and comfort the remorseful woman, who grew more quiet at
last, and exhibited less terror of death and the world beyond.
“I may yet be saved, but it will be as by fire,” she said to Gertie one
day,—the seventh since the morning when Edith had been borne insensible
from her room.
In her own agony of mind Mrs. Barrett had not evinced much interest in
Edith’s illness, nor did she know how sick she was until, when more
quiet herself, she asked for her daughter, and why she did not come to
see her. Then Gertie told her of the fever which was raging so high, and
with the tears pouring over her withered face, Mrs. Barrett said:
“I shall never see her again; but tell her, Gertie, how bitterly I
repented, and how at the last peace came, even to me. Tell her, too,—and
don’t forget this message, which will comfort her, perhaps,—tell her the
last words she ever said to me must not make her unhappy. I deserved
them. I do not blame her, and she need not remember them with regret,
though she will forgive me some time. Heaven has, I hope.”
She was very quiet after that for the remainder of the day, and lay with
her eyes shut; but several times, when Gertie looked at her to see if
she was asleep, she saw her lips move, and knew that she was praying.
That night was her last, for she died toward morning,—alone with Gertie,
as she wished to be.
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