At last, with a sigh of content, she felt herself fully equipped for
the struggle; she was looking her best. If George didn't care for her
so--and she viewed herself again approvingly from all sides--why, she
couldn't help it. She had done all she could, but if he did, and he
must--why, then, he'd tell her, and they'd be happy. At the bottom of
her heart she felt afraid. George was strange; not a bit like other
men. He might be cold, and at the thought she felt inclined to cry out.
Pride, however, came to her aid. If he didn't like her, it would be his
fault. She had just done her best, and that she reckoned, with a flush
of pardonable conceit, was good enough for any man.
An hour later Bancroft went up to his room. As he opened the door Loo
turned towards him from the centre-table with a low cry of surprise,
drawing at the same time the ends of the fleecy woollen wrap tight
across her breast.
“Oh, George, how you scared me! I was jest fixin' up your things.” And
the girl crimsoned, while her eyes sought to read his face.
“Thank you,” he rejoined carelessly, and then, held by something of
expectation in her manner, he looked at her intently, and added: “Why,
Loo, how well you look! I like that dress; it suits you.” And he stepped
towards her.
She held out both hands as if to meet his, but by the gesture the
woollen scarf was thrown back, and her form unveiled. Once again her
mere beauty stung the young man to desire, but something of a conscious
look in her face gave him thought, and, scrutinizing her coldly, he
said:
“I suppose that dress was put on for Mr. Barkman's benefit.”
“Oh, George!” she cried, in utter dismay, “he hain't been here to-day.”
And then, as the hard expression did not leave his face, she added
hurriedly: “I put it on for you, George. Do believe me.”
Still his face did not alter. Suddenly she understood that she had
betrayed her secret. She burst into bitter tears.
He took her in his arms and spoke perfunctory words of consolation; her
body yielded to his touch, and in a few moments he was soothing her
in earnest. Her grief was uncontrollable. “I've jest done everythin',
everythin' and it's all no use,” she sobbed aloud. When he found that
he could not check the tears, he grew irritated; he divined her little
stratagem, and his lip curled. How unmaidenly! In a flash, she stood
before him, her shallow, childish vanity unmasked. The pity of it did
not strike him; he was too young for that; he felt only contempt for
her, and at once drew his arms away. With a long, choking sob she moved
to the door and disappeared. She went blindly along the passage to her
room, and, flinging herself on the bed, cried as if her heart would
break. Then followed a period of utter abject misery. She had lost
everythin'; George didn't care for her; she'd have to live all her life
without him, and again slow, scalding tears fell.
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