When Alice, the widowed, the childless Alice, entered the
room; when their eyes met, she opened her arms. Oh, what
depths of mysterious feeling, of unutterable memories, of
silent aspirations, were crowded in that embrace. O language,
where is your strength? O words, your power, compared with the
mute communion of such an hour?
But all are not assembled yet; and Ellen's eyes are fixed on
the door with earnest expectation; and when it opened, and she
saw Mr. Lacy, her guide, her friend; he who by his sacred
ministry had prepared her for death, she turned paler than
before, for he was not alone--an aged woman followed him, and
gazed upon her with a strange and bewildered expression. There
was a moment's deep silence, and then Ellen, turning
successively to each of them, addressed them thus:--
"You who have been to me all tenderness--you who have been to
me just and merciful, with a justice and a mercy more than
human; you whom God made His instrument to bring me through
much sorrow unto repentance; and you through whose means He
brought me back to Himself, listen to me, and hearken to my
dying words. Mrs. Middleton, you had a child, and you lost
her; my hand, unwittingly, unknowingly (so help me God! as I
speak the truth)--_my_ hand was the instrument of her death;
it was lifted up in anger but not in malice, and that anger
has been visited upon me by a fearful punishment, which, like
the mark which was set on Cain's brow, has followed me all my
days since, and has brought me to an early grave. Can you
forgive me? Oh yes, by that hand which I grasp--by these tears
which fall on my brow, and which wash away that fiery mark
which has branded _it so long_, you do forgive me--you say of
me what our Saviour said of his murderers, 'God forgive her,
she knew not what she did.' And now," she continued after a
pause, during which there was no sound in that room but
stifled sobs, "and now let me take a solemn leave of you all;
let me ask for your prayers, for my end is at hand."
Mrs. Tracy knelt by Ellen's bed-side, and said, in hardly
articulate tones, "Pray for us when you are in Heaven."
"God bless you," answered Ellen, faintly, and closed her eyes.
After an instant she opened them again, and turning to Mr.
Lacy, she said, in a voice of the deepest emotion, "Oh, Mr.
Lacy, is it not merciful that death has been so sent to me as
to allow me time to rise up on my knees, and to cry, 'Lord
have mercy upon me?'" She was seized with a sudden faintness,
and sunk back on the bed exhausted.
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