England, My EnglandLawrence, D. H. (David Herbert)
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England, My England
Lawrence, D. H. (David Herbert)
England -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction; Short stories, English
However, once again it was Harvest Festival at Morley Chapel, and once
again, as ten years before, a soft, exquisite September day, with the
last roses pink in the cottage gardens, the last dahlias crimson, the
last sunflowers yellow. And again the little old chapel was a bower,
with its famous sheaves of corn and corn-plaited pillars, its great
bunches of grapes, dangling like tassels from the pulpit corners, its
marrows and potatoes and pears and apples and damsons, its purple
asters and yellow Japanese sunflowers. Just as before, the red dahlias
round the pillars were dropping, weak-headed among the oats. The place
was crowded and hot, the plates of tomatoes seemed balanced perilously
on the gallery front, the Rev. Enderby was weirder than ever to look
at, so long and emaciated and hairless.
The Rev. Enderby, probably forewarned, came and shook hands with her
and welcomed her, in his broad northern, melancholy singsong before he
mounted the pulpit. Fanny was handsome in a gauzy dress and a beautiful
lace hat. Being a little late, she sat in a chair in the side-aisle
wedged in, right in front of the chapel. Harry was in the gallery
above, and she could only see him from the eyes upwards. She noticed
again how his eyebrows met, blond and not very marked, over his nose.
He was attractive too: physically lovable, very. If only—if only her
_pride_ had not suffered! She felt he dragged her down.
“Come, ye thankful people come,
Raise the song of harvest-home.
All is safely gathered in
Ere the winter storms begin——”
Even the hymn was a falsehood, as the season had been wet, and half the
crops were still out, and in a poor way.
Poor Fanny! She sang little, and looked beautiful through that
inappropriate hymn. Above her stood Harry—mercifully in a dark suit and
dark tie, looking almost handsome. And his lacerating, pure tenor
sounded well, when the words were drowned in the general commotion.
Brilliant she looked, and brilliant she felt, for she was hot and
angrily miserable and inflamed with a sort of fatal despair. Because
there was about him a physical attraction which she really hated, but
which she could not escape from. He was the first man who had ever
kissed her. And his kisses, even while she rebelled from them, had
lived in her blood and sent roots down into her soul. After all this
time she had come back to them. And her soul groaned, for she felt
dragged down, dragged down to earth, as a bird which some dog has got
down in the dust. She knew her life would be unhappy. She knew that
what she was doing was fatal. Yet it was her doom. She had to come back
to him.
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