Authors, English -- 20th century -- Biography; Blackwood, Algernon, 1869-1951
After a time I collected the two documents and pieced them together
again between the pages of a book, lest someone might enter and
discover them. The doctor was not coming that day, but there might be
other visitors. Then it suddenly dawned on me--why hadn’t this occurred
to me before?--that the whole thing must be a joke after all. Of course
... why not? It might even have something to do with the rôle of
understudy in the Sothern Play. It could easily be--oh, surely!--a bit
of stupid fun on Kay’s part. The carelessness too! Throwing the scraps
in the basket under my very nose, where anybody could easily see them,
where Mrs. Bernstein might find them, or the woman who came in twice a
week to do the room. This was certainly against criminal intent.
The most far-fetched explanations poured through my mind, invited by
hope, dressed up by eager desire, then left hanging in mid-air, with
not the faintest probability to support them. I deliberately recalled
the kind actions, the solicitude, the sharing of receipts, a thousand
favourable details, even to the innocent expression and the frank blue
eyes, only to find these routed utterly by two other details; one
negative, one vague, yet both insistent; the doctor’s silence and the
shadow noticed recently on the sleeping face.
It was eleven o’clock; Boyde had said he would return about four; I
expected him, for the doctor, whom he avoided, was not coming. There
were five hours of waiting to endure first.
The situation which another might have tossed aside with a wry laugh at
himself for having been a guileless fool, to me seemed portentous with
pain and horror.
I had no plan, however, when the door opened at half-past three, long
before I expected it. There was in me no faintest idea of what I
was going to say or do. The book lay on my knee, with the documents
concealed between the pages. I had heard no footstep, the rattle
of the handle was the first sound I caught. Yet the door opened
differently--not quite as Boyde opened it. There was hesitation in
the movement. In that hesitation of a mere second there again flashed
across my mind a sudden happy certainty; the documents could be
explained, it was all a joke somewhere. He had done nothing wrong, he
would clear up the whole thing in a moment! Of course! It was my weak,
feverish condition that had raised a bogey. A few words from him were
now going to destroy it.
Then, instead of Boyde, I saw Grant standing shyly on the threshold,
the young actor who had pawned his overcoat. This time he wore it.
The relief I felt at seeing him betrayed me to myself.
I welcomed him so heartily that his shyness disappeared. He had dropped
in by chance, he told me. I gave him an account of my discovery, and he
bent over me to see the cheque and letter, asking if the writing was
really Kay’s. He looked very grave.
“It’s not unlike it, but it isn’t his,” I replied. “What do you make of
it? Why are they torn up?” I was burning to hear what he thought.
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