Authors, English -- 20th century -- Biography; Blackwood, Algernon, 1869-1951
We went from place to place as hour after hour passed. We found
his trail, and each time we found it my heart failed me. A woman,
gorgeously painted, showing her silk stockings above the knee, her
atmosphere reeking of bad scent and drink, came sidling up, murmuring
this and that.... The Doctor’s eye was on me, though he said no word,
made no single gesture.... The tin-type photograph was produced....
“Yep, I seen dat fellar,” grinned the woman in her “tough” bowery
talk they all affected in the Tenderloin. “A high flier ... raining
in London, too”--a gibe at the “English” habit of turning up one’s
trousers--with a stream of local slang, oaths, filthy hints and
repeated demands to “put ’em up,” meaning drinks. Then a whispered
growl from the old German “_Nichts! ... sie luegt ... los mit ihr!_”
A further stream of lurid insults ... and she was gone, while another
sidled up a little later. They all knew German, these women. Was not
New York the third biggest German city, qua population, in the Empire?
Few, as a matter of fact, were American. Barring the mulattos and
quadroon girls, to say nothing of the negresses, the majority were
French, Hungarian, Spanish, Italian, Dutch or some polyglot mixture not
even the British Museum could define....
Never did the old German’s kindness prove itself as in these hideous
night-watches. Apart from all questions of trouble and expense, he was
obliged to take extra doses of morphine to meet the charge upon his
system, at a time, too, when he was struggling to reduce the quantity.
Compared to what he did, even the fact that he gave the poison to
others, possibly to his own child among them, seemed negligible.
Not only did he accompany me during the chase, spending hours in
low, suffocating dens of beastliness, walking the wind-swept streets
in mid-winter, suffering insults and acute discomfort, but also he
bestowed practical care and kindness on me during the day, providing
me with food (I was in no state even to pose in the studios at the
time), and even suggesting that I should fit up a bed in his workshop
where he kept the lathe and made the chessmen. All this, too, from an
old man, himself in deep misery, and on the losing side of a fight far
more terrible than I ever knew or imagined, a fight, _he_ then realized
already, was to end before very long in failure, which meant death. The
strange, broken old being, twisted and distorted though his nervous
system was by a drug, showed--to me, at any rate--that rare thing
which experience of life proves greater than intellect, than success,
than power, or brilliance may achieve--a heart. If reincarnation, with
its karmic law, be true, either he owed me a heavy debt from some
forgotten past, or I owe to him a debt some future life will enable,
and enforce me, to repay.
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