Authors, English -- 20th century -- Biography; Blackwood, Algernon, 1869-1951
One other thing I noticed about his visit, when towards the end, Boyde
came in unexpectedly, bringing a small bunch of the yellow Spanish
grapes. In his best, most charming manner he spoke with the doctor. The
doctor’s face, however, darkened instantly. His features, it seemed to
me, froze. His manner was curt. He scarcely replied. And when he left a
little later he did not include my friend in his good-bye. It puzzled
me. It added to my uneasiness as well.
Boyde, who apparently had noticed nothing, explained that he had to go
out again to an appointment with Davis about the Rockaway Hunt post; he
did not return that night at all.
I listened to the city clocks striking midnight, one, two, three ...
he did not come. I listened to the howling wind as well. Imagination
tried feebly to construct a happier state, lovelier conditions, a world
nearer to the heart’s desire. While waiting for midnight to strike, I
said to myself, thinking of yesterday and to-morrow, with all the one
had meant and the other might mean to me:
“Yesterday is now twenty-four hours away, but in a minute it will be
only one minute away.”
I treated the hidden to-morrow similarly. I imagined, the world being
old and creaky, ill-fitting too, that a crack existed between the two
days. Anyone who was thin enough might slip through! I, certainly, was
thin enough. I slipped through.... I entered a region out of time, a
region where everything came true. And the first thing I saw was a
wondrous streaming vision of the wind, the wind that howled outside
my filthy windows.... I saw the winds, changing colours as they rose
and fell, attached to the trees, in tenuous ribands of gold and blue
and scarlet as they swept to and fro.... I little dreamed that these
fancies would appear fifteen years later in a book of my own, “The
Education of Uncle Paul.” That crack, at any rate, became for me, like
the fiddle, a means of escape from unkind reality into a state of inner
bliss and wonder “where everything came true.”...
It was after twelve o’clock next day when Boyde returned--with a
black eye, my one thick suit stained and soiled, and a long involved
story that utterly confused me. There had been a fight; he had
protected a woman; a false charge had been laid against him owing to
misunderstanding, owing also to the fact that he had no money to tip
the policeman, and he had spent the night in a cell at Jefferson Market
police station. In the morning the magistrate had discharged him with
many compliments upon his “gallantry and courage.” It did not ring
true. I knew the Tammany magistrates better than that. He contradicted
himself too, in saying that a Mr. Beattie, a friend of his mother’s,
who occasionally gave him a little money she sent from England, had
bailed him out. He had been bailed out, discharged with compliments,
had slept in a cell, and not been fined! I smelt spirits too. It all
made me miserable.
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