I have been told that in some public discourses of mine my reverence
for the intellect has made me unjustly cold to the personal relations.
But now I almost shrink at the remembrance of such disparaging words.
For persons are love’s world, and the coldest philosopher cannot
recount the debt of the young soul wandering here in nature to the
power of love, without being tempted to unsay, as treasonable to
nature, aught derogatory to the social instincts. For though the
celestial rapture falling out of heaven seizes only upon those of
tender age, and although a beauty overpowering all analysis or
comparison and putting us quite beside ourselves we can seldom see
after thirty years, yet the remembrance of these visions outlasts all
other remembrances, and is a wreath of flowers on the oldest brows. But
here is a strange fact; it may seem to many men, in revising their
experience, that they have no fairer page in their life’s book than the
delicious memory of some passages wherein affection contrived to give a
witchcraft, surpassing the deep attraction of its own truth, to a
parcel of accidental and trivial circumstances. In looking backward
they may find that several things which were not the charm have more
reality to this groping memory than the charm itself which embalmed
them. But be our experience in particulars what it may, no man ever
forgot the visitations of that power to his heart and brain, which
created all things anew; which was the dawn in him of music, poetry,
and art; which made the face of nature radiant with purple light, the
morning and the night varied enchantments; when a single tone of one
voice could make the heart bound, and the most trivial circumstance
associated with one form is put in the amber of memory; when he became
all eye when one was present, and all memory when one was gone; when
the youth becomes a watcher of windows and studious of a glove, a veil,
a ribbon, or the wheels of a carriage; when no place is too solitary
and none too silent, for him who has richer company and sweeter
conversation in his new thoughts than any old friends, though best and
purest, can give him; for the figures, the motions, the words of the
beloved object are not like other images written in water, but, as
Plutarch said, “enamelled in fire,” and make the study of midnight:—
“Thou art not gone being gone, where’er thou art,
Thou leav’st in him thy watchful eyes, in him thy loving heart.”
In the noon and the afternoon of life we still throb at the
recollection of days when happiness was not happy enough, but must be
drugged with the relish of pain and fear; for he touched the secret of
the matter who said of love,—
“All other pleasures are not worth its pains:”
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