England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Governesses -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
"Oh, of course," rather hastily. "Charity begins at home, but it ought
not to stop there. If I chose to waste my time practicing for Fred's
violin, and attending to all his thousand and one fads and fancies,
what would become of all my parish work? You should have heard Mr.
Arnold's sermon last Sunday, Esther; he spoke of the misery and poverty
and ignorance that lay around us outside our homes, and of the
loiterers and idlers within those homes." And Carrie's eyes looked sad
and serious.
"That is true," I returned, and then I stopped, and Jessie's words came
to my mind, "Even Carrie makes mistakes at times." For the first time
in my life the thought crossed me; in my absence would it not have been
better for Carrie to have been a little more at home? It was Jessie's
words and mother's careworn face that put the thought into my head; but
the next moment I had dismissed it as heresy. My good, unselfish
Carrie, it was impossible that she could make mistakes! Carrie's next
speech chimed in well with my unspoken thoughts.
"Home duties come first, of course, Esther--no one in their senses
could deny such a thing; but we must be on our guard against
make-believe duties. It is my duty to help mother by teaching Jack, and
I give her two hours every morning; but when Fred comes into the
schoolroom with some nonsensical request that would rob me of an hour
or so, I am quite right not to give way to him. Do you think," warming
into enthusiasm over her subject, "that Fred's violin playing ought to
stand in the way of any real work that will benefit souls as well as
bodies--that will help to reclaim ignorance and teach virtue?" And
Carrie's beautiful eyes grew dark and dewy with feeling. I wish mother
could have seen her; something in her expression reminded me of a
picture of Faith I had once seen.
"Oh, Esther," she continued, for I was too moved to answer her, "every
day I live I long to give myself more entirely to benefiting my fellow
creatures. Girl as I am, I mean to join the grand army of workers--that
is what Mr. Arnold called them. Oh, how I wish I could remember all he
said! He told us not to be disheartened by petty difficulties, or to
feel lonely because, perhaps, those who were our nearest and dearest
discouraged our efforts or put obstacles in our way. 'You think you are
alone,' he said, 'when you are one of the rank and file in that
glorious battalion. There are thousands working with you and around
you, although you cannot see them.' And then he exhorted us who were
young to enter this crusade."
"But, Carrie," I interrupted, somewhat mournfully, for I was tired and
a little depressed, "I am afraid our work is already cut out for us,
and we shall have to do it however little pleased we may be with the
pattern. From what Uncle Geoffrey tells me, we shall be very poor."
"I am not afraid of poverty, Esther."
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