English fiction -- 19th century; Tailors -- Fiction
But, that you may not think too highly of this lady, I must add that the
trivial reason was the exciting cause--as in many great enterprises.
This was nothing more than the simple desire to be located, if but for a
day or two, on the footing of her present rank, in the English country-
house of an offshoot of our aristocracy. She who had moved in the first
society of a foreign capital--who had married a Count, a minister of his
sovereign, had enjoyed delicious high-bred badinage with refulgent
ambassadors, could boast the friendship of duchesses, and had been the
amiable receptacle of their pardonable follies; she who, moreover,
heartily despised things English:--this lady experienced thrills of proud
pleasure at the prospect of being welcomed at a third-rate English
mansion. But then, that mansion was Beckley Court. We return to our
first ambitions, as to our first loves not that they are dearer to us,
--quit that delusion: our ripened loves and mature ambitions are probably
closest to our hearts, as they deserve to be--but we return to them
because our youth has a hold on us which it asserts whenever a
disappointment knocks us down. Our old loves (with the bad natures I
know in them) are always lurking to avenge themselves on the new by
tempting us to a little retrograde infidelity. A schoolgirl in Fallow
field, the tailor's daughter, had sighed for the bliss of Beckley Court.
Beckley Court was her Elysium ere the ardent feminine brain conceived a
loftier summit. Fallen from that attained eminence, she sighed anew for
Beckley Court. Nor was this mere spiritual longing; it had its material
side. At Beckley Court she could feel her foreign rank. Moving with our
nobility as an equal, she could feel that the short dazzling glitter of
her career was not illusory, and had left her something solid; not coin
of the realm exactly, but yet gold. She could not feel this in the
Cogglesby saloons, among pitiable bourgeoises--middle-class people daily
soiled by the touch of tradesmen. They dragged her down. Their very
homage was a mockery.
Let the Countess have due credit for still allowing Evan to visit Beckley
Court to follow up his chance. If Demogorgon betrayed her there, the
Count was her protector: a woman rises to her husband. But a man is what
he is, and must stand upon that. She was positive Evan had committed
himself in some manner. As it did not suit her to think so, she at once
encouraged an imaginary conversation, in which she took the argument that
it was quite impossible Evan could have been so mad, and others instanced
his youth, his wrongheaded perversity, his ungenerous disregard for his
devoted sister, and his known weakness: she replying, that undoubtedly
they were right so far: but that he could not have said he himself was
that horrible thing, because he was nothing of the sort: which faith in
Evan's stedfast adherence to facts, ultimately silenced the phantom
opposition, and gained the day.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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