She ate without knowing what the food was. Her mind was a blank slate
now. Impressions came and made tracks on it like chalk on a blackboard,
but they were immediately erased. She couldn't concentrate at all. It
was a state not far from hysteria, she knew. Lucky meant everything he
said.... Lucky, yes--Lucky.... It was so hard to concentrate. Lucky
might try to kill her or might try to make love to her or might try....
"... clean up and make it snappy," Lucky told the driver.
"What's your hurry? Going someplace?"
"When I'm in the mood for wisecracks, I'll crack them. Just clean up in
a hurry, that's all."
The driver did so, while Lucky sat smoking a cigarette. The cabin's
single all-purpose room was lit by a kerosene lamp hanging from the
ceiling on a big hook and casting uneven shadows as the wind came
through the open windows and stirred it. Jeanne-Marie felt herself
dropping off to sleep and had time to register amazement. She should
have been horrified, afraid for her life, beyond the point where sleep
was possible. Mary-Jean surely would have been.
Yes, she thought dreamily, Mary-Jean would have been. Which was one
lesson she learned from Jeanne-Marie at least. Useless fretting had
always been part of Mary-Jean's make-up. But then, it was not owned
exclusively by Mary-Jean: useless fretting probably took more energy
from more housewives....
She awoke with a start. She felt instantly refreshed. Somehow, she had
known she would. In that way, the beautiful Jeanne-Marie had a certain
animal-like quality about her. Sleep--and a quickening of the self. She
felt alert and capable, almost as if she had been dosed with benzedrine.
She heard a noise outside and went silently to the window. Lucky was
on the porch. He had found some rope and was tying the cab driver
there. Lucky--with a psychopath's mind. Not insane, of course. An
insane person was badly oriented. Lucky knew what he was doing--but he
didn't care about the consequences, as they affected other people. A
psychopath. A fugitive murderer psychopath with absolutely nothing to
lose whether he tried to make love to her or decided to kill her....
Adventure, Jeanne-Marie thought. This was adventure, all right. This
was what she had overlooked.
In adventure--always--was the element of danger. It was part
of the definition of adventure. And a housewife--a mother with
responsibility--had no business craving adventure.
No business?
Well, maybe once. Once only--to cure her. Or once, to keep with her
all her life through the dull times and the humdrum days. Provided,
Jeanne-Marie thought with a strange little smile, she lived through it.
"I see you're awake," Lucky said, coming inside the cabin. "What's so
funny?"
"Nothing you would understand. Why did you tie him out there, Lucky?"
"Why do you think? Do we have to talk about it?"
"Not if you don't want to, I guess."
"I found something to drink," Lucky told her. "Want some?"
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