Impelled by some indefinable desire, she lays her fingers softly on
the hand that lies outside the coverlet. The awful chill that meets
her touch seems to reach even to her heart. Throwing her arms above
her head, with a wild passionate cry, she falls forward, and lies
senseless across the lifeless body.
* * * * *
Misery hurts, but it rarely kills; and broken hearts are out of
fashion. All this unhappiness came to Georgie Broughton about a year
ago, and though brain-fever followed upon it, attacking her with
vicious force, and almost handing her over as a victim to the greedy
grave, yet she had survived, and overcome death, and returned from the
land of shadows, weakened, indeed, but with life before her.
Months passed before she could summon up sufficient energy to plan or
think about a possible future. All this time her aunt Elizabeth had
clothed and fed and sheltered her, but unwillingly. Indeed, so
grudgingly had she dealt out her measure of "brotherly love" that the
girl writhed beneath it, and pined, with a passionate longing, for the
day that should see her freed from a dependence that had become
unspeakably bitter to her.
To-day, sitting in her little room,--an apartment high up in Aunt
Elizabeth's house,--she tells herself she will hesitate no longer,
that she is strong now, quite strong, and able to face the world. She
holds up her delicate little hand between her eyes and the window, as
a test of her returning strength, only to find she can almost see the
light through it,--so thin, so fragile, has it grown. But she will not
be disheartened; and, drawing pen and paper towards her, she tries to
write.
But it is a difficult task, and her head is strangely heavy, and her
words will not come to her. A vague feeling, too, that her letter will
be unsuccessful, that her friend will fail her, distresses and damps
her power to explain her position clearly.
Who can say if Clarissa Peyton will be the same at heart as when last
they parted, with many words of good will and affection, and eyes dark
with tears?
Grief and misery, and too much of Aunt Elizabeth, have already
embittered and generated distrust in her young bosom. She is tired,
too. All day she has toiled, has worked religiously, and gone through
wearying household labor, trying to repay in some faint wise the
reluctant hospitality extended to her. At this moment a sense of utter
desolation overpowers her, and with a brain on fire, and a heart half
broken, she pushes from her the partly-written letter, and, burying
her face in her arms, breaks into low but heavy weeping.
"Papa! papa!" she sobs, miserably. It is the common refrain of all her
sorrowful dirges,--the sadder that no response ever comes to the
lonely cry. Of our dead, if we would believe them happy we must also
believe that they have forgotten us; else how (when we think on our
bleeding hearts) could they keep their bliss so perfect?
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