Adoptees -- Fiction; Fathers and daughters -- Fiction
It was a wild scheme to make so young a child as Elizabeth the companion
of these devious and long wanderings, yet it was her idea that shed
golden rays on the boundless prospect he contemplated. He could not have
undertaken this long journey alone--memory and remorse his only
companions. He was not one of those, unfortunately, whom a bright eye
and kindly smile can light at once into a flame--soon burnt out, it is
true, but warming and cheering, and yet harmless, while it lasted. He
could not, among strangers, at once discern the points to admire, and
make, himself the companion of the intelligent and good, through a sort
of freemasonry some spirits possess. This was a great defect of
character. He was proud and reserved. His esteem must be won--long
habits of intimacy formed--his fastidious taste never wounded--his
imagination never balked; without this he was silent and wrapped in
himself. All his life he had cherished a secret and ardent passion,
beyond whose bounds everything was steril--this had changed from the
hopes of love to the gnawing pangs of remorse--but still his heart fed
on itself--and unless that was interested, and by the force of affection
he were called out of himself, he must be miserable. To arrive
unwelcomed at an inn--to wander through unknown streets and cities
without any stimulus of interest or curiosity--to traverse vast tracts
of country, useless to others, a burden to himself, alone--this would
have been intolerable. But Elizabeth was the cure; she was the animating
soul of his project; her smiles--her caresses--the knowledge that he
benefited her, was the life-blood of his design. He indulged, with a
sort of rapture, in the feeling that he loved, and was beloved by an
angel of innocence, who grew each day into a creature endowed with
intelligence, sympathies, hopes, fears, and affections--all individually
her own, and yet all modelled by him--centred in him--to whom he was
necessary--who would be his; not, like the vain love of his youth, only
in imagination, but in every thought and sensation, to the end of time.
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