Fan : The Story of a Young Girl's LifeHudson, W. H. (William Henry)
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Fan : The Story of a Young Girl's Life
Hudson, W. H. (William Henry)
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Miss Churton made no reply; she walked to a chair, and sitting down
dropped her hat on the floor and covered her face with her hands. How
sad she looked in that attitude, how weary of the vain conflict, and how
despondent! For a little while there was silence in the room, but the
girl's bowed head moved with her convulsive breathing, and there was a
low sound presently as of suppressed sobbing.
“Would to God the tears you are shedding came from a contrite and
repentant heart,” said the mother, with a tremor in her voice. “But they
are only rebellious and passing drops, and I know that your stony heart
is untouched.”
Miss Churton raised her pale face, and brushed her tears away with an
angry gesture. “Forgive me, mother, for such an exhibition of weakness.
I sometimes forget that you have ceased to love me. Please say what you
wish, make things clear, add as many reproaches as you think necessary,
and then let me go to my room.”
Mrs. Churton checked an angry reply which rose to her lips, and sat
down. She too was growing tired of this unhappy conflict, and her
daughter's tears and bitter words had given her keen pain. “Constance,
you would not say that I do not love you if you could see into my heart.
God knows how much I love you; if it were not so I should have ceased to
strive with you before now. I know that it is in vain, that I can
only beat the air, and that only that Spirit which is sharper than a
two-edged sword, and pierceth even to the dividing of the bones and
marrow, can ever rouse you to a sense of your great sin and fearful
peril. I know it all only too well. I shall say no more about it. But I
must speak to you further about this young girl, who has been entrusted
to my care. When I replied to the advertisement respecting her, I
thought too much about our worldly affairs and the importance of this
money to us in our position, and without sufficiently reflecting on the
danger of bringing a girl at so impressible an age under your influence.
The responsibility rests with me, and I cannot help having some very sad
apprehensions. Wait, Constance, you must let me finish. I have settled
what to do, and I have Miss Starbrow's authority to take on myself the
guidance of the girl in all spiritual matters. I spoke to her about it,
and regret to have to say that she seems absolutely indifferent about
religion. I was deeply shocked to hear that Miss Affleck has never been
taught to say a prayer, and, so far as Miss Starbrow knows, has never
entered a church. Miss Starbrow seemed very haughty and repellent in her
manner, and declined, almost rudely, to discuss the subject of religious
teaching with me, but would leave it entirely to me, she said, to teach
the girl what I liked about such things. It is terrible to me to think
how much it may and will be in your power to write on the mind of one so
young and ignorant, and who has been brought up without God. Constance,
I will not attempt to command, I will ask you to promise not to say
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