Fan : The Story of a Young Girl's LifeHudson, W. H. (William Henry)
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Fan : The Story of a Young Girl's Life
Hudson, W. H. (William Henry)
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“I know that, Fan,” she replied, “and should be very sorry to question
you about such matters. It saddens me to think that your childhood was
unhappy, and if I could help you to forget that period of your life I
would gladly do so. The question I should have to ask would be about
something recent. Can you not guess what it is?”
“No, Miss Churton--at least I don't think I can. Will you not tell me?”
“You know that my life here is not a happy one.”
“Is it not? I am so sorry.”
“When I first saw you I imagined that it would be different, that your
coming would make me much better off. I had been wondering so much what
you were like, knowing that we should be so much together. When I at
length saw you it was with a shock of pleasure, for I saw more than I
had dared to hope. A first impression is almost infallible, I think, and
to this day I have never for a single moment doubted that the impression
I received was a right one. But I was greatly mistaken when I imagined
that in your friendship I should find compensation for the coldness of
others; for very soon you put a distance between us, as you know, and it
has lasted until now. That is what was passing through my mind a little
while ago when I watched your face; and now, Fan, can you tell me why
you took a dislike to me?”
“Oh, Miss Churton, I have never disliked you! I like you very, very
much--I cannot say how much!” But even while this assurance sprang
spontaneously from her lips, she remembered Mary's warning words, and
her heart was secretly troubled, for that old danger which she had
ceased to fear had now unexpectedly returned.
“Do you really like me so much, Fan?” said Constance, taking the
girl's hand and holding it against her cheek. “I have thought as much
sometimes--I have almost been sure of it. But you fear me for some
reason; you are shy and reticent when with me, and out of lesson-time
you avoid my company. You imagine that it would be wrong to love me,
or that if you cannot help liking me you must hide the feeling in your
heart.”
It startled Fan to find that her companion was so well able to read her
thoughts, but she assented unhesitatingly to what the other had said.
This approach to confidence began to seem strangely sweet to her, all
the sweeter perhaps because so perilous; and that contact of her hand
with the other's soft warm cheek gave her an exquisite pleasure.
“And will you not tell me why you fear me?” asked Constance again.
“I should like you to know so much ... but perhaps it would not be right
for me to say it ... I wish I knew--I wish I knew.”
“I know, Fan--I am perfectly sure that I know, and will save you the
trouble and pain of telling it. Shall I tell you? and then perhaps I
shall be able to convince you that you have no reason to be afraid of
me.”
“I wish you would,” eagerly returned Fan.
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