Fan : The Story of a Young Girl's LifeHudson, W. H. (William Henry)
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Fan : The Story of a Young Girl's Life
Hudson, W. H. (William Henry)
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From that day a cloud rested on the ladies of Wood End House. Just when
Nature called them to rejoice, when the sun laughed at the storm, and
the blackbird fluted so loud in the orchard, and earth knew once more
the glory of flowers, this great trouble had come on Fan, dimming the
sweet visible world with a mist of tears. The poverty and toil which
she must now face meant so much to her; day and night, at all times,
the thought of it forced itself on her--the perpetual toiling for a
bare subsistence, for bread to satisfy the cravings of hunger; the mean
narrow, sordid, weary life, day after day, with no hope, no dream of
joy to come; and worse than all, the evil things which she had seen and
heard and were associated in her mind with the thought of poverty, all
the things which made her old life seem like a hideous nightmare to her!
The sunshine and flowers and the fluting of the blackbird, that would
soon flute no more for her, could not drive this care from her heart;
she was preoccupied, and silent, and sad, and Constance was sad from
pure sympathy. Mrs. Churton, although still kind and even motherly
in her manner, could not help showing that Fan's offence had not been
forgotten; yet she loved the girl so well that she could not but feel
the deepest pity for her and anxiety about her future. And she even
still hoped to win her confidence.
“Fan,” she said one evening, when bidding her good-night, “you must not
think that what passed the other day between us makes any difference
with regard to my plans about your future. What I said to you then still
holds good, and my home while I have one is your home.”
Fan knew very well that she might not accept this offer; she knew that
the Churtons were poor and burdened with debt; and that even if it had
not been so, after taking up an independent position in opposition to
Mrs. Churton, she had no right to remain a day beyond the time for which
payment had been made. All this in a faltering way she tried to explain
to her kind friend, and Mrs. Churton confessed to herself that the girl
took the right view. She made no further attempt to win her confidence
or to make her change her mind; towards both Fan and her daughter she
thereafter observed a somewhat cold and distant manner, grieving in her
own heart, yearning over them in secret, but striving to hide it all
from their eyes.
A fortnight after the receipt of Miss Starbrow's letter, one afternoon
the girls came in from their walk, and Constance, seeing her mother at
work in the dining-room, remained standing at the door until Fan went
upstairs. Then she went inside and sat down near her mother. Mrs.
Churton glanced at her with a swift startled glance, then bent her eyes
on her work again. But her heart fluttered in her breast, for she knew
that she was about to hear some new and perhaps painful thing.
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