Fan : The Story of a Young Girl's LifeHudson, W. H. (William Henry)
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Fan : The Story of a Young Girl's Life
Hudson, W. H. (William Henry)
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“Mother,” Constance began presently, “Fan has made up her mind to go
back to London when her time is up with us. She is going to look for a
situation.”
“A situation--what do you mean, Constance?”
“Her own idea is that she would like best to be a shop-girl in some
large London shop.”
“Then all I can say is that it is very shocking. Does the poor child
know what it means to be a shop-girl in a great city, where she has
no home or friends, where she will associate with ignorant and
vulgar people, and worse perhaps, and be exposed to the most terrible
temptations? But what can I say, Constance, that will have the slightest
weight with either Fan or you?”
“I should like it very much better if Fan could do something
different--if she could find some more ladylike occupation. But nothing
will move her. If she cannot get into a shop, she says that she must
be a servant, because she must earn her own living, and she will not
believe herself capable of anything higher. To be a shop-girl, or
a nursery-governess, or failing that a nursemaid, is as high as her
ambition goes; and though I am sorry that it must be so, I can't help
admiring her independence and resolution.”
“I am glad that there is anything in it all to be admired; it only makes
me sad, and just now I can say no more about it. I only hope that before
the time comes she will think better of it.”
“I have something else to say to you, mother,” said Constance, after a
rather long interval of silence. “I have made up my mind to accompany
Fan to London.”
“What do you mean, Constance?” the other asked, with a tremor in her
voice.
“To live in London, I mean. It has long been my wish, and I am surely
as well able to earn my living now as I ever shall be. When Fan goes I
shall not be needed at home any longer. And we are not happy together,
mother.”
“I know that, Constance; but you must put this idea of going to London
out of your head. I cannot consent to it--I shall never consent to it.”
“Why not, mother?”
“Do not ask me. I cannot say--I scarcely know myself. I dare not think
of such a thing; it is too dreadful. You must not, you cannot go. Do not
speak of it again.”
The other's task was all the harder because she knew the reason of her
mother's reluctance, and understood her feeling so well--the terrible
grief which only a mother can feel at the thought of an eternal
separation from her child. She rose to her feet, but instead of going
from the room remained standing, hesitating, twisting and untwisting her
fingers together, and at length she moved to a chair close to her mother
and sat down again.
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