Fan : The Story of a Young Girl's LifeHudson, W. H. (William Henry)
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Fan : The Story of a Young Girl's Life
Hudson, W. H. (William Henry)
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“A very fine picture that; I shouldn't mind having it if the owner
cares to part with it,” he said at length, and then half turning again,
regarded her out of the corners of his eyes. “Well, Fan, what do you
think of all this curious business?” he added, with a slight laugh.
For how many hours she had been trying to picture this meeting in her
mind, now imagining him tender and affectionate as she wished him to
be, now cold or contemptuous or resentful; and in every case her heated
brain had suggested the very words he would use to her; but for this
careless tone, and the inexplicable look on his face, according so ill
with his tone, she was quite unprepared, and for some time she could
make no reply to his words.
“Arthur,” she spoke at last, “if you could have known how anxiously I
have been waiting for you since yesterday, I think you would in mercy
have come a little sooner.”
“Well, no, Fan, I think not,” he returned, still careless.
She advanced two or three steps nearer.
“Have you then come at last only to confirm my worst fears? Tell me,
Arthur--my brother! Are you sorry to have me for a sister?”
Again he laughed.
“What a simple maiden you must be to ask such a question!” he said.
“Sorry? Good God, I should think so! Sorry is no word for it. If Fate
thought it necessary to thrust a sister on me I wish it had rather been
some yellow-skinned, sour old spinster, but not you.”
“Do you hate me then?” she exclaimed, misinterpreting his meaning in
her agitation. “Oh what have I done to deserve such unhappiness? Have
I brought it on myself by those cruel words I spoke to you when we last
met?”
He had turned again towards her and was watching her face, but when she
looked at him his eyes dropped.
“Yes, I remember your words, Fan,” he said. “You abused me at Kew
Gardens, and you think I am having my revenge. You would remember me,
you said, only to detest me. Am I less a monster now because I am your
relation?”
“Arthur, forgive me--can you not say that you forgive me?” coming still
nearer, and putting out her hands pleadingly to him.
His lips moved but made no sound; and she, urged on by that great
craving in her heart, at length stood by his side, but he averted his
face from her.
“Arthur,” she spoke again in pleading tones, “will you not look at me?”
Then, with sudden anguish, she added, “Have I lost everything you once
saw in me to make you love me?” But he still made no sign; and growing
bolder she put her arm round his neck. “Arthur, speak to me,” she
pleaded. “It will break my heart if you cannot love me.”
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