"I have known many Catholics in my day; I have never known one like you.
You weigh all questions fairly, without prejudice, but shed on the
solution of great problems the light of an undying faith. You know I
obey no active claims of religion; yet I have never willingly abjured
God in my heart. Mine is a negative quality, not aggressive. I am as
sure that, were your faith called into question, you would go to the
rack to uphold its most trivial point as I believe in God myself. There
are many who trust you in this way; I am one of the number. If you
failed, their faith would shatter; it would be as the foundation of a
house sinking suddenly.
"Many things have been denied you in life, those things even which you
most ardently wished, and for which from our human point of view you
were most fitted for. But this is yours: The power to point the way by
example; to uplift, as a living witness of its purity, the creed to
which you have subscribed, and against which here in England so many
barriers are raised of scorn and contumely and indifference.
"Here, on the very brink of the unknown, having gone through life as
best I might, faultily. no doubt, but as, I hope, a gentleman to the
last, I look to you with failing eyes and raise my hat in farewell. And
perhaps I see you more clearly now than I ever did. You have been led
away by emotion in your day; the devil seldom errs in aim; in your case,
he has lodged his shaft in your most sensitive spot. Other women fall
through egotism or ambition; you would fall through pity. But you are
eminently logical. Should the time come when you are face to face with
a great crisis, I beg you to remember my words and to pause and inquire.
You would sacrifice yourself to one; yes, but would you sacrifice
others? And there are many others who look to you as I do now, as the
living witness of the purity of a faith which has kept its pre-eminence
in spite of scorn and mockery and scourging—a faith which will, I think,
always endure.
"The sea has lashed itself into absurd frenzy as I write. The sea can
be very cruel. It longs to destroy, to tear and rend, like any human
being. Three or four nights ago, as you doubtless read in the papers, it
broke up a big ship like matchwood; it met and battered the men who
tried to fight it beyond recognition, from mere wickedness. The sea and
life are very alike in their methods. Life mars and mutilates the body.
But if the soul has been true to itself, it looks upon those human
wounds as outlets through which it may creep hour by hour, filtering
through earthly channels to be one at last—bleeding but satisfied—in the
image of its Creator.
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