'You have never openly said as much,' his mother finished the phrase
for him. 'No, my son, but I see and feel full well how you shun my
company. And now I should not keep you with me had I not a request to
make. Give up this wild search after excitement--these furious,
protracted rides about the country. You will wear yourself out. Of my
anxiety I will not speak. You have long ceased to heed it; but you can
no longer deceive Hedwig with this constrained gaiety. She was
speaking to me on the subject before you came in, saying how uneasy
and unhappy she felt about you.'
The Countess spoke in a subdued tone. Her voice was low and lacked all
ring; yet there ran through it a subtle thrill of pain. Edmund had
drawn nearer slowly, and was now standing by the table before her. He
did not raise his eyes from the ground as he replied:
'Nothing ails me. You are both troubling yourselves most unnecessarily
on my account.'
The Countess was silent, but again there came that nervous working of
the lips which Hedwig's words had previously called forth. It told
what poor comfort this assurance gave her.
'Our present life is so busy and full of agitation,' went on Edmund.
'We shall all do better when Hedwig has fairly taken up her abode
here.'
'And I mine at Schönfeld,' added the Countess, with profound
bitterness. 'Well, we have but an interval of a few weeks to pass.'
'Mother, you are unjust. Am I the cause of your leaving? This
separation takes place by your own express wish.'
'I saw that it was necessary for us both. We could not continue to
live on together, as we have lived during the past two months. You are
frightfully overwrought, Edmund, and I do not know how it will all
end, whether your marriage will produce some change in your frame of
mind. Perhaps Hedwig may succeed in making you calm and happy once
more. Your love for her is now my one hope ... for I ... my power is
over!'
Things must indeed have gone far when the proud woman, who had so long
triumphantly maintained the first place in her son's affections,
stooped to such an avowal as this. There was no bitterness and no
reproach in her words, but their tone betrayed such poignant grief
that Edmund, with quick remorse, went up to her and took her hand.
'Forgive me, mother. I did not mean to hurt you. Indeed, indeed, I
would not wound your feelings. You must be indulgent to me.'
He spoke with a touch of the old tenderness, and more was not needed
to make the Countess forget all the estrangement. She moved as though
she would have drawn her son to her breast, but it was not to be.
Edmund, yielding, as it were, to an irresistible impulse, recoiled
involuntarily; then, remembering himself at once, he bent over his
mother's hand and pressed his lips to it.
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