'I do not, I do not,' said Edmund, drawing a deep breath. 'And
therefore I hold fast to that which is mine, mine alone, and will
maintain it in the face of all. In your love, at least, I may believe.
That, at least, is no lie. If I were to be deceived here, if I must
doubt and despair of you--then the sooner I make an end of it, the
better.'
'Edmund, this wild talk of yours distracts me,' cried Hedwig, starting
back, scared by his vehemence. 'You are ill, you must be ill, or you
would not use such language.'
This anxious cry brought Edmund to his senses. He made a great effort
to regain composure, and even succeeded in forcing a smile as he
replied:
'Why, are you beginning that tale? A few minutes ago my mother was
lecturing me, saying I was excited and overwrought. And in fact it is
nothing more than that. I am nervous and unstrung, but the fit will
pass. Everything comes to an end, you know, sooner or later. Do not be
anxious, Hedwig. Now I must go and see if Everard has got all ready
for my expected guests. I forgot to give him any special orders.
Excuse me for ten minutes, will you? I shall be with you again
immediately.'
He released the girl from his arms and left her, once more breaking
off abruptly, fleeing, as it were, from further explanation or
discussion. It was impossible to solve the enigma. The Countess and
Edmund were alike impenetrable.
Hedwig returned to her former place, and sat, absorbed in troubled
meditation, resting her head on her hand. Edmund was concealing
something from her, yet his love for her had suffered no change or
diminution. It needed not the Countess's words to assure her of this;
her own feelings told her the fact far more convincingly. His
affection seemed indeed to have gained in intensity. She was more to
him now than in former days, when his mother stood so prominently in
the foreground; but the girl involuntarily trembled at meeting an
outburst of fervid passion there, where she had been wont to look only
for gay and sportive tenderness. How strange, how fitted to inspire
uneasiness had been Edmund's manner again to-day! Why did he so
vehemently demand an assurance that her love was given to him, to him
personally? And why would he 'make an end of it,' were he to be
deceived in this belief?
Hedwig felt that she should have thrown herself on her lover's breast,
and forced from him a frank and open confession.
Obstinately as he might withhold his confidence from her, he would
surely have given way, if she had prayed him with all the eagerness
and earnestness of heartfelt love--but this she could not bring
herself to do. Something like a secret consciousness of guilt
restrained her from using her full power. Yet she had valiantly fought
against the dreams which constantly brought before her another figure,
the figure of one who now was far away, and whom she would probably
never see again.
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