'Forgive me,' he said, after a pause. 'I did not intend any reproach
to my father's memory. It assuredly was no fault of his if anything
were wanting to your contentment.'
'Nothing was wanting,' exclaimed the Countess, with a rush of genuine
feeling. 'Nothing, for I had you, my Edmund. You have been all in all
to me; you have made up to me for everything. I have desired no other
happiness since I have had my son's love. So far indeed'--here her
voice sank--'so far his love has been mine alone; now I must share it
with another, who henceforth will take the first place in his heart.'
'Mother!' broke in the young Count, half pleading, half reproachful.
'You will be to me still what you have ever been.'
The Countess shook her head gently.
'I have, of course, long known that the time would come when the
mother must make way for the wife; but now that it is here, it seems
hard--so hard to bear, that I sometimes seriously think of leaving
Ettersberg when you are married, and of going to live at Schönfeld,
which you know was appointed me as a dower-house.'
'Never!' exclaimed Edmund, with vehemence. 'You cannot, will not, act
so unkindly by me. You must not leave me, mother. You know that I
cannot do without you, even though I have Hedwig. Much as I love her,
she would not make up to me for all that I should lose in you.'
The Countess heard these words with secret triumph. She knew that
Edmund was sincere in his speech; the present moment convinced her of
her power afresh. For his promised wife he had never anything but
light talk and merry jests; Hedwig knew only the pleasant but
superficial side of his character, which he showed to the world
generally. All the deeper, intenser feelings of his nature belonged
exclusively to his mother. As they flowed out towards her in all their
warmth and fulness, she triumphantly recognised the fact that the
first place in her son's heart was still hers.
She had indeed known it, felt sure of it all along, and perhaps to
this conviction Hedwig owed much of the friendly consideration which
the Countess had always shown her. A bride more ardently, more
passionately beloved would have found a redoubtable adversary in the
jealous mother; this young girl, who neither gave nor required any
great depth of affection, was endured because she did not endanger the
maternal sway.
'Hush, hush! do not let anyone hear you,' said the Countess playfully,
yet with a swift deep undercurrent of tenderness. 'It is not becoming
in an engaged man, and the lord of many broad acres, to declare that
he cannot do without his mother. Do you think, my dear, that it would
be easy for me to leave you?'
'Do you think I would let you go? The mere formal recognition of my
majority will not make a straw's difference in our position one
towards the other.'
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