First Love: A Novel. Vol. 3 of 3Loudon, Mrs. (Margracia)
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First Love: A Novel. Vol. 3 of 3
Loudon, Mrs. (Margracia)
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Pious enthusiasm stole over her heart, as, with thrilling sweetness, a
youthful voice sang, “And now, Lord, what is my hope? truly my hope is
even in thee!” Again, when the voice proclaimed, “Man walketh in a vain
shadow, and disquieteth himself in vain!” how contemptible seemed the
struggles of worldly ambition for the precedence of an hour! And now the
voice pronounced, “In the midst of life, we are in death!” And poor Julia
thought of Edmund, and of the dangers of the sea; and her heart died
within her. It so happened that the countenances most immediately in the
view of our heroine, were those of a number of the oldest naval officers,
who were of course, in general, the oldest men, as the grey hair, thinly
scattered on the brow of many told.
At the moment Julia first remarked this, voices in the choir were singing
the verse, “Though men be so strong that they come to fourscore years,
yet is their strength but labour and sorrow, so soon passeth it away,
and we are gone.” No eye wandered, no limb was restless, while the
very stillness of each motionless figure possessed expression. It was
not repose; it was not listlessness; it was the fixedness of serious
attention.
Many of the countenances bore the traces, not of age only, but also of
hardships. Hardships endured. Wherefore? To render home a sanctuary! A
sanctuary to infirmity, to infancy, to those of her own sex, to all, in
short, who were unable to defend themselves! Julia’s enthusiasm arose:
How beautifying, she thought, is every furrow so produced.
She pictured to herself each individual now so quiescent in form; so
still in feature; on the deck of his floating citadel, surmounting a
tempest, or conquering an enemy.
Midnight, winter, every adventitious circumstance, crowded on her
poetic imagining, of what though she had never seen, yet she had so
often studied in description, that, of all subjects, it was the one
most familiar to her fancy. Ship after ship arose before her mind’s
eye; till, gradually, they formed themselves into an invincible bulwark
around our happy isles, establishing them the throne of peace; while wild
warfare desolated the outer world! “Yes,” thought Julia, “even our foes
find refuge here, when oppression hunts them from their homes!” And her
heart swelled with pride, that she was the native of such a land! The
gradations of rank faded before this grand distinction; to be a Briton,
seemed exaltation sufficient! She paused a moment—“How proud a thing
then to be one of those who have made Britain what she is,” whispered a
small voice within the heart of Julia. At the moment her eye was fixed in
a certain direction, by the moving a little forward of a figure, hitherto
intercepted by an opposite pillar—it was Edmund! Her heart ceased
beating, fluttered, ceased again, then beat so rapidly as to impede her
breathing.
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