First Love: A Novel. Vol. 3 of 3Loudon, Mrs. (Margracia)
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First Love: A Novel. Vol. 3 of 3
Loudon, Mrs. (Margracia)
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She then drew a very long breath, and began to prepare herself. “He will
return immediately!” she thought. She tried to compose her spirits,
but in vain: her heart fluttered like a bird trying to escape from its
cage. The tramping over head increased; she turned pale. It lessened; the
colour stole gradually over her cheeks again. She listened, and breathing
was again suspended, and every power of life concentrated in the sense
of hearing. This became so acute, that, amid all the mingled sounds of
a busy deck, she could yet plainly distinguish the well known tread of
Fitz-Ullin on the main deck, approaching the cabin door. A cold sensation
passed over her cheeks and brow. She clasped her hands together a moment,
then let one fall at her side, and rested the other on the table. But
there, its trembling movement was so visible, that with hasty confusion
she withdrew it; and, fixing her eyes on the ground, held down, with a
fatiguing effort, the universal tremor of her frame. He entered. He stood
before her. He seated himself beside her. But, he made no attempt to
take her hand.
One universal glow had covered her face and neck at his first approach,
while she could have cried with vexation at the exposure. “You do not
misunderstand me, I hope,” he said, perceiving her pitiable agitation.
“You must, I think,” he continued, “be able to comprehend for what
purpose I have requested this interview. You must have expected that I
could not see Lord Surrel’s importunate attentions, and remain passive.”
She made no reply; but coloured, if possible, deeper than before, and
looked more studiously downward; yet, Fitz-Ullin perceived the dawning
of a pleasurable feeling shining through the confusion that covered as
with a veil every other expression of her countenance. How can he be so
foolish, thought Julia, as to be jealous of an absolute stranger, like
Lord Surrel.
“I am rejoiced to perceive,” he recommenced, “that instead of being
offended at my presumption, you are good enough to seem disposed to
give me a favourable hearing. It was quite impossible for me not to be
fully aware—not to know, in fact, what are, what must be your feelings,
yet,”—he paused. So audacious, so well assured a suitor, one who was
thus certain, that her preference for himself must render the attentions
of any one else importunate, did not seem to need encouragement; and
Julia, though the tears of shame started to her eyes, was too gentle, too
fondly attached to chide; she therefore remained silent; and, (must it
be confessed?) uncontrollable delight predominated very unduly over the
indignation she thought she ought to feel!
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